Blackeyes
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- Joined
- Jul 7, 2019
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- Reason
- CALS
- Diagnosis
- 06/2019
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- CA
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- SK
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- Swift current
Because Larry has ALS they have waved the 2 drs gave their immediate approval and the 10 days period was waved. They are coming to our house Wednesday night. Our children will be there and a nurse who is also a very close friend. He is at peace with his decision and even has some colour in his cheeks. His nightmare will be over Wednesday and he believes in God so he has no fears.
He spoke to our grandchildren yesterday who are 12 yr old twins snd they know grandpa is being given a drug to help him to heaven. One of the twins asked him if he was afraid. And larry told him no. It made the boy’s feel better. They each told a special memory they had. Said I love you and after they hung up my son called a little while later. He’s on nights out of town working and they called him to make sure he was hanging in there. Such sweet boys.
I don’t believe in god so I have many fears. I feel like there is a ticking sound in my head. A countdown and it’s so friggen surreal that tomorrow they will call with a time they will be here Wednesday night. An appointment they called it. Like he’s getting his tooth pulled. I don’t think we should know the time or day ever. That’s for something like christmas or birthdays. This feels so wrong on so many levels and I just want to scream please don’t leave me. But I know he would stay and I know it would hurt him and he would suffer.
thanks for letting me vent and for all the kind words and support.
cindy
He spoke to our grandchildren yesterday who are 12 yr old twins snd they know grandpa is being given a drug to help him to heaven. One of the twins asked him if he was afraid. And larry told him no. It made the boy’s feel better. They each told a special memory they had. Said I love you and after they hung up my son called a little while later. He’s on nights out of town working and they called him to make sure he was hanging in there. Such sweet boys.
I don’t believe in god so I have many fears. I feel like there is a ticking sound in my head. A countdown and it’s so friggen surreal that tomorrow they will call with a time they will be here Wednesday night. An appointment they called it. Like he’s getting his tooth pulled. I don’t think we should know the time or day ever. That’s for something like christmas or birthdays. This feels so wrong on so many levels and I just want to scream please don’t leave me. But I know he would stay and I know it would hurt him and he would suffer.
thanks for letting me vent and for all the kind words and support.
cindy
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