im sure 99.9% i have or in process of having als,my hands r gtting weaker,tht if i try n pick a pillow il drop it after 2secs,hands whn i pick pillow up feel tickly,cnt turn in bed no more,bite tongue accidently whn im eating,swallowing muscles gtin weaker,arms feel heavier n wobbly,cnt use knife and fork coz need left hand to hold table whn i eat or else id mke a mess,in the last week iv been gtin a weird feelin tht i have saliva build on left side cheek n feeling of left lower lip is wet,but whn i chck theres no wattery or saliva there.got married last nov,only problem at tht time was walking with help n balance,now it seems my upper body is affected,afraid i have als,wife will join me in uk whn i put spouse visa application soon,but now affraid tht im nnot how i was whn we got married,im rreally scared,and with me being ill im affraid her visa cud be refused,so once this happens n if i find out i have als,i will definitely end it,maybe even b4 tht,if symptoms get worser,for the lastt 4 months i have been sat upstairs in my room avoiding n gtin isolated from family,thy all think il get over it n socialise with thm,whn the truth is iv been shockd with wots happening to me,and now if i tell thm wot ive wrote here bout my symptoms i dont think thy bleive me 100%,my uncle 15yrs ago startd off in a wheelchair n thn for sum reason was paralysd neck dwn,tht he cdnt even speak apart from mumble,he died 15yrs ago,i remember i was 11yr old n id b sat in his house with his son,and my uncle cud speak,thn whn i was 16yrs old he cdnt move n wud groan n mumble,i was only person to visit there house,as my n my uncle family wrnt speaking to each other over sum family dispute,so now i dnt think my family understand how difficult it ccud get 4 me,i do coz iv seen my uncle suffer 1st hand,i dnt kno if it was als he had,coz 15yrs ago i dnt think thy had a name 4 it,anyway whn i got married last year i was so in luv with life n looking forward,now im very affraid,esspevcially wots happenin to me,sooner or later i will give up.
