Living our best one day at a time?
agneta526, and others who are facing the depression and the questions about do I keep fighting or give up? I was a work-a-holic when this disease hit me. I would spend everyday doing some kind of project, no matter how large or how small. Now like many of you I find myself in the wheelchair full time, having to let others bath me, move me from place to place, etc. Big changes yes, very big for me.
The first time I had a hospice aid undress me for a bath was so embarrassing I can not put it into words. Yet I got use to what had to be done. I have had so many reasons to just give up and say the hell with it all.
I have spent the last 20 years with chronic low back pain due to an airplane accident that left me with permanent nerve damage to my low back. Pain that would wake me at night screaming for relief. And there was none. The pills just mask the pain, they do not make nerve pain go away.
I have at least 30 times had things happen to me that the normal person would say that can not possibly happen to one person. I've been coded in hospitals when my heart stopped beating. I've learned I am allergic to every pain medicine on the market but Demerol and Lortab. Anything else affects my heart so I cannot take it.
I'm not trying to say I have had it worse than you, only saying I have been through a lot in the my lifetime of 62 years. Now I am almost locked into my body. If you get bored some day please go read my blogs. You can see where I get my strength to overcome whatever comes my way. It is only by the mercy and love of God that I am able to endure all things, hope all things, believe all things.
Romans 8:37-39
37 Nay, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him that loved us.
38 For I am persuaded, that neither death, nor life, nor angels, nor principalities, nor powers, nor things present, nor things to come,
39 Nor height, nor depth, nor any other creature, shall be able to separate us from the love of God, which is in Christ Jesus our Lord.
I will make it to the end by the grace and mercy of God alone. Not by my strength, my will, or my emotions.
2 Timothy 1:
12 For the which cause I also suffer these things: nevertheless I am not ashamed: for I know whom I have believed, and am persuaded that he is able to keep that which I have committed unto him against that day.