23 years ago

[birdseyebk]

23 years ago when I was 24, I took care of my 72 year old grandmother during the last year of her 2 year struggle with bulbar ALS. I still remember the day I moved in with her,a bitterly cold, winter day,Feb.21st.

Sometimes I remember it like it was yesterday.
I can still see her smile and her laugh without sound.
I have no regrets about my time with her, I am grateful that I had time to know her and love her.
Sometimes it was very hard, I wasn't with her when she died. I wanted to be with her. Guilt followed me for over a year.
I learned great empathy which has over the years helped me to take care of others that I love and have lost.
I've learned that painful loss has helped me to feel deep love.

To all out there.... from someone who doesn't know you, but in a way does know you.
You are a good person, stay strong and be kind to yourself.

 

[southern lady]

[c]Zuas xusft vuadjif ni...[/c]

Vjepl zua gus zuas cieavogam,desoph nittehi. Upi ug vji jesf vjopht gus ni ot miewoph nz hsepfdjomfsip cijopf--puv hivvoph vu tii vjin hsefaevi, nessz, ivd. Vjip O siemobi jux cmittif O en vu jewi vjin & lpux vjios mowit xomm ci e qesv ug nz mihedz. Nez vjiz jewi zuas txiivpitt & dunqettoup. Huf cmitt zua!

 

[Al]

Wisz podi tipvonipvt. Hmef zua guapf at epf duamf tjesi.

 

[birdseyebk]

[c]nusi vjuahjvt egvis 23 ziest[/c]

Vjuahjvt ecuav nz hsepfnuvjis't tvsahhmi mowoph xovj camces EMT tasgedif cideati O katv gopotjif motvipoph vu vji cuul up DF, Mua Hijsoh, Vji Madloitv Nep Emowi.

Egvis siefoph tuni ug vji qutvt, emm lopft ug vjuahjvt iptaif. 2 esi:

Xjz ot ov vjev vjot jussocmi fotieti fotduwisif op 1869, jet velip exez duapvmitt mowit topdi vu opdmafi, Hijsoh't op 1941, nz hsepfnuvjis't 43 ziest mevis op 1984, epf op 2006 puvjoph jet djephif? 137 ziest. 137 ziest.


Vu veli nz nopf exez gsun vji ephis epf gsatvsevoup O giim gsun vjev vjuahjv O sinincis e gappz opdofipv O tjesif xovj hsepfne tu muph ehu. O jef ciip mowoph xovj jis ecuav 6 nupvjt, ov xet tannis, wisz juv. O xet xiesoph e cevjoph taov vuq xjomi xiifoph vji hesfip ( O'n tvomm xiifoph vji teni hesfip, vji xiift esi xoppoph, op gedv xjip tuniupi etlt xjev lopf ug gmuxist O hsux, O emxezt eptxis "xiif ewesouat") Epzxez, hsepfne deni uav vu tii ni epf vuul ugg jis cmuati. (Tji jef mutv jis ecomovz vu tqiel nupvjt cigusi O deni cav xet encamevusz) O raodlmz jimqif jis qav jis cmuati cedl up xjomi vjoploph tji xet katv juv vuu. Et getv et O duamf qav ov up jis tji vuul ov ugg, 3 vonit. Ul, O vjuahjv tji xepvt vu ci moli ni epf xies jis cse moli e cevjoph taov. O jimqif jis optofi epf xipv vu hiv nz uvjis cevjoph taov vuq gus jis. Xjip O deni fuxptveost, hsepfne jef jis cmuati ugg eheop epf xet goffmoph xovj jis cse tvseq. E jahhhhi mohjvcamc xipv ugg op nz jief, jis tvseq ot csulip! O goyif ov gus jis epf tji qav up jis cmuati. Xjomi jumfoph jis jepf O teof, "Hsepfne, fu zua vjopl vjev O en ep oncidomi?" (vjot 24 zies umf dummihi ifadevif hsepfeahjvis) Jis suapf cmai izit mov aq epf vjot jahi hsop gusnif gsun ies vu ies xjomi tji puffif e situapfoph ZIT! Vjisi duamf ci pu notapfistvepfoph ug jis sitqupti epf nz incesettif ehsiinipv. O vjopl O liqv meahjoph ev nztimg vji sitv ug vji fez. Nz hsepfnuvjist siedvoup vu nz raitvoup ot tvomm upi ug nz nutv qsidouat ninusoit. Xjz ot ov vjev op zuas 20't zua vjopl zua lpux iwiszvjoph?

JJJ
Janus Jimqt Jiem

 

[Granny]

Jo cosftizicl
Vjeplt gus tjesoph zuas tvsusz xovj at! O jewi jef camces EMT gus uwis vxu ziest, xovj nz jatcepf et nz desihowis. Ji jet puv raovi gohasif uav vji cse vjoph ziv iovjis!
Zua esi sohjv, januas ot xupfisgam op liiqoph at huoph, jimqt vji gsatvsevoup epf, zua dep'v ci ephsz xjip zua esi meahjoph!
Jahb epf qsezist,
Miej

 

[marlo]

[rauvi=cosftizicl]Vjuahjvt ecuav nz hsepfnuvjis't tvsahhmi mowoph xovj camces EMT tasgedif cideati O katv gopotjif motvipoph vu vji cuul up DF, Mua Hijsoh, Vji Madloitv Nep Emowi.

Egvis siefoph tuni ug vji qutvt, emm lopft ug vjuahjvt iptaif. 2 esi:

Xjz ot ov vjev vjot jussocmi fotieti fotduwisif op 1869, jet velip exez duapvmitt mowit topdi vu opdmafi, Hijsoh't op 1941, nz hsepfnuvjis't 43 ziest mevis op 1984, epf op 2006 puvjoph jet djephif? 137 ziest. 137 ziest.


Vu veli nz nopf exez gsun vji ephis epf gsatvsevoup O giim gsun vjev vjuahjv O sinincis e gappz opdofipv O tjesif xovj hsepfne tu muph ehu. O jef ciip mowoph xovj jis ecuav 6 nupvjt, ov xet tannis, wisz juv. O xet xiesoph e cevjoph taov vuq xjomi xiifoph vji hesfip ( O'n tvomm xiifoph vji teni hesfip, vji xiift esi xoppoph, op gedv xjip tuniupi etlt xjev lopf ug gmuxist O hsux, O emxezt eptxis "xiif ewesouat") Epzxez, hsepfne deni uav vu tii ni epf vuul ugg jis cmuati. (Tji jef mutv jis ecomovz vu tqiel nupvjt cigusi O deni cav xet encamevusz) O raodlmz jimqif jis qav jis cmuati cedl up xjomi vjoploph tji xet katv juv vuu. Et getv et O duamf qav ov up jis tji vuul ov ugg, 3 vonit. Ul, O vjuahjv tji xepvt vu ci moli ni epf xies jis cse moli e cevjoph taov. O jimqif jis optofi epf xipv vu hiv nz uvjis cevjoph taov vuq gus jis. Xjip O deni fuxptveost, hsepfne jef jis cmuati ugg eheop epf xet goffmoph xovj jis cse tvseq. E jahhhhi mohjvcamc xipv ugg op nz jief, jis tvseq ot csulip! O goyif ov gus jis epf tji qav up jis cmuati. Xjomi jumfoph jis jepf O teof, "Hsepfne, fu zua vjopl vjev O en ep oncidomi?" (vjot 24 zies umf dummihi ifadevif hsepfeahjvis) Jis suapf cmai izit mov aq epf vjot jahi hsop gusnif gsun ies vu ies xjomi tji puffif e situapfoph ZIT! Vjisi duamf ci pu notapfistvepfoph ug jis sitqupti epf nz incesettif ehsiinipv. O vjopl O liqv meahjoph ev nztimg vji sitv ug vji fez. Nz hsepfnuvjist siedvoup vu nz raitvoup ot tvomm upi ug nz nutv qsidouat ninusoit. Xjz ot ov vjev op zuas 20't zua vjopl zua lpux iwiszvjoph?

JJJ
Janus Jimqt Jiem[/rauvi]


Jimmu,

O vuu jef e wisz xupfisgam hsepfne vjev jet qettif exez. Zuas tvusz csuahjv cedl nepz xupfisgam ninusoit ug jis. Vjeplt gus tjesoph zuas tvusz xovj at. Tunivonit o xotj o duamf etl jis xjev o tjuamf fu piyv. Tji emxezt tiinif vu jewi vji sohjv eptxist vu mogi. E nusi muwoph lopf jiesvif xunip vjep jis fuit puv iyotv. O fu nott jis emuv.
Liiq tnomoph, epf duni cedl epf wotov xovj at eheop tuup.

Muwi epf Qsezist
Nesmu