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    CALS Roll call

    I haven't checked in for a bit but I do come and live vicariously through all of you. I have to say my stomach aches when I read of your PALS declining or having a bad day-still so fresh and it brings back such memories. I think I will always have angst and sadness over his last week on earth-it...
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    Barbie's Ken Doll

    I'm so sorry to hear your news. I haven't posted many times but every time I did, you had a kind reply to me. It's been almost seven weeks for me and I am still lost and in shock. I don't think I really thought it was real- he wasn't going to Die! It sounds like you have a good network of...
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    My love has finished his journey

    Feeling so sad this weekend- here in Canada it's thanksgiving and the tv is full of happy family gatherings. I came here and re- read your condolences. It is comforting and did make me smile through my tears to hear strangers express their condolences and caring. Thank you all- and bless you as...
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    CALS Roll call

    Sorry I guess I wasn't clear. Not surprising- these days it's an effort to get out of bed, let alone be able to,think clearly. My husband and I separated and my children cut me out out of their lives. I was lucky enough to have a dear friend, who over the lonely scary months became my rock, my...
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    CALS Roll call

    Hello everyone, It's been five incredibly painful agonizing weeks since I lost my love. I would give anything -anything!- to have him back for just five minutes. To kiss his dear face, hug him and tell him how much I miss him. I am really struggling with guilt- in my head I know it's stupid but...
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    CALS Roll call

    I didn't think I would come back here, but its just so painful, knowing that such a short time ago I was checking every day for advice, alternating between hope and despair. I prayed for it to be over, to have some sort of normalcy -nowthat actually makes me sick to my stomach with anguish...
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    My love has finished his journey

    I am so heartbroken to announce that my beloved Rick passed peacefully on Friday evening. He was surrounded by people who loved him. I am beyond devastated. I look back at my posts of a week ago where I was complaining of being burnt out and I would give anything to be that burnt out again...
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    My love is fading

    I'm sorry to say that it seems things have taken a turn for the worse. Friday he started coughing and was short of breath, trying to clear his lungs. That went on almost all night. Saturday he was better but began coughing again about five and coughed until about 12:30. He slept almost all day...
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    One perspective on handling CALS stress

    I am actually crying reading these posts. I've been feeling like the most terrible person for wishing deep inside that this could be over. I will be heartbroken (but you are so right, we start grieving from diagnosis and the event we are grieving hasn't even happened yet) but I will be so glad...
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    CALS Roll call

    I'm new here so I don't post much - but I visit often. It soothes my guilt when I hear others say they are overwhelmed and burnt out. I hurt everywhere- back, shoulders, knees, wrists. Since he went to bed two hours ago he's called me six times to reposition him- it's going to be a long night....
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