Please stay and receive support here. We are all stressed, trying to deal with this monster. You have happened along just when something went awry here that hasn't happened in the 6 months or so I've been here, and in fact I've found everyone great. I did sit back a bit at first and try to get the 'feel' of the place and people. Text from all over the world in any forum has a way of getting meanings confused and people can jump to conclusions too quickly. I'm not a moderator here, but I have owned forums since the mid 90's and I know what flame wars can be like and I find this place is great. The software moderates posts yes, but please understand this is to try and stop spammers from posting huge volumes of messages with links to distasteful things, not meant to stop us talking. We all have posts go to moderation, I've learned to just laugh and my posts get approved and appear later. You are in an awful situation, and we offer you friendship and support if you let us. hugs Tillie