Hello hangingon1,
I've read most of your posts, going back quite a while. I understand your grief and disappointment in the futility of this disease. You have traveled the entire journey, thus far, and dealt with the roller coaster of emotions that go with it.
I saw where you were very bitter, hurting, and i turn, lashing out at the rest. I also saw where you talked to a few very positive people and decided to change your attitude, or at least your negative posts. You even promised, and challenged ottawa girl to follow your future posts.
You did good for quiet a while, but the last two posts were trending back toward your old bitterness. Please don't allow yourself to become a negative force. No one needs that, and I'm pretty sure if you continue on that vein, David will eventually ban you from posting at all.
Hate to see that happen, you have something to offer, if you will just do it.
Hang tough,
Steve