Thank you so much, it is very hard. I hope i do make a good nurse, i know i can say I have been there, or i know how you feel and mean it. I really feel it is my calling, i do feel it was a parting gift from my husband to me (silly to say it like that but it helps to think he knew what driection i needed to go in. I just miss him so much, i feel i cant do it with out him. but he is still with me, i just have to have faith that he is. He was my rock, then i was his rock.. now i am on quicksand... one day i will be with him again.. and fill him in on all he missed. Untill then, i gotta live this life for the both os us. - A