Hi Barbie, haven't been on the forum for so long and decided to take a peek today. Glad you are doing ok. I like you grieved for almost 3 years before Santa Joe found freedom. The tears are not very often......a profound peace is what I feel now.
As you might imagine, this was Santa Joe's favorite time of the year. Here at Disney world with my oldest son and his family. Crying. Not in front of the granddaughters - don't want to ruin this o them. I would rather spend Christmas in bed holding a t shirt of his and crying but I now that...
That was the way Joe was. I can only imagine what was going thru his mind..........hugs to you. I know how difficult this is for you but know there is nothing you can do but it doesn't make it any easier.
Knowing that he would not see his grandchildren grow up brought Santa Joe so much sadness. He would cry after each visit with them. I left the explaining up to their parents. They never brought up his dying to me but I knew that was explained to them.
I've always been a planner and organized. When I met with the liaison from the funeral home, she was amazed I was on top of everything. I had to be....... I had pre-planned his funeral arrangements a year before he passed. Had all financial papers in a folder. I can't begin to tell you what...