Recent content by pdcraig

Hi everyone, it been a very long time since I was here. I needed to take a step back. Years ago, we had done personality tests, basic extrovert vs introvert. It was based on how you recharged. Did you feed off of the energy of a crowd or did you need time alone. I fall into the latter. I find...

Things have been better the last little while. Haven't really done anything, just feel better. Sue, general consensus from everyone is that I am doing fine, doctor, therapist, counselor. All I need is time, they'd be more worried if I felt nothing. I understand what they are saying but I can't...

Hi Buckhorn, I hope you are doing well, as well as can be expected, Any loss is hard, but losing a spouse also means missing a big part of your support. They're the people we would be turning to for comfort and it's impossible not to feel that void or be sad. I think that's okay. It will take...

Hi Sooner, Grief really is a strange thing, I agree. I hope your sessions with the counselor are helping. I know mine helped me enormously. Being able to just talk, no need to edit or put a face on anything was a relief and it helped me sort through what I was feeling. There were 2 things she...

It's been a rough few days, Had dinner with a friend last week. She lost her husband about a year and a half before Ferd died. We had a great time catching up. She's been travelling all over. We talked a lot about grief and loss. It was comforting and distressing at the same time. Comforting...

Wish, I'm sorry for your loss. Beautiful tribute to your PALS. Sending you peace and strength for the next part of your journey.

It's late, can't sleep. Just rambing, trying to put some thoughts in order. I can't believe it's been 4 months since Ferd died. It feels like I haven't seen him in forever, like it's been so much longer. And then I think it's only been 4 months, that's why this still feels so raw. I'm back at...

Just rambling. Today was 3 weeks since Ferd died. I've been trying to get the thank you cards done and have been in tears all weekend. I got the online stuff finished but the cards are still waiting, Not sure what it is about them that is so hard but... Getting his things together and doing the...

Thank you all for your condolences. This is all so surreal.

Ferd passed away quietly this evening. I was lying beside him holding his hand and he just stopped breathing. I am heartbroken.

Can't sleep, just rambling. Forgive any lapses in sanity, spelling, grammar, punctuation. Ferd is still hanging on. All I can say is it's been rough. After 3 weeks with no food, on Tuesday he told me he wanted a snack. He had a yogurt and kept it down, then ate again on Wednesday, just a bit. I...

So, where to start. Thank you for the continued support. I honestly don't know what I would do without all of you behind me. BTW, you all have my doctor's seal of approval. She thought this was great support. Ferd is still hanging in there. Nothing to eat for over 2 weeks now. The palliative...

Still here. The continued support you have all been sending our way is much appreciated. Ferd is hanging in there, I have no idea how. It's been just over a week since he ate anything. He still drinks occasionally but the gag reflex has been really persistent. It's happening almost any time he...

I'm so crushingly tired right now. Ferd is still hanging in there but now his kidneys have started to fail so another cause for concern. We couldn't get everything together for a night away last night, so we had another bed put in Ferd's room. It was finding an adjustable bed big enough for the...

I can't believe it's been two weeks. The days just disappear. It's been a rough ride. I never know what I'm walking into, with Ferd or at work. Thank you all for the support and understanding. We finally talked to the doctor and he confirmed the problems Ferd has been having with his stomach...