Hi OMGMP, I returned to this site last night. I haven't been on for about a month now and I discovered that Allen and Al have died and Ken is not available. I'm also very worried about you. I saw the photo on your Facebook page - I didn't realize you were in a wheelchair. Marta, tell me, how do we deal with all of this? I know you give good advice about keeping upbeat and seeing the good things in life, but honestly, sometimes the sadness just overwhelms. Allen was so gruff yet kind, Al was the BEST moderator and so helpful, and Ken, he wrote me so many times that I really thought I was getting to know him. I wish I had met them all. This site.... I just get the feeling that I'm getting to know someone and then they're gone. God, I'm being selfish!!! In spite of all this sadness, I am happy that I know you. Alice is in Ontario visiting with Ben's family. I admire her for her trips to see everyone she cares for. She is very much like you, Marta.