look at him and wonder if this will be his last. Having family over & hope that lifts his spirits. You are so young and I hate you have to face this at your age. Follow your dreams of becoming a nurse. With caring for your mom for so long, you will make a wonderful nurse. U sound like a great mom and your moms and kids are lucky to have you.
My husband and I are both 63. When I look at him, I wonder how much more he can take. Then I look in the Mirror and wonder his much can I take. Then the guilt trip comes for even thinking of myself with all he's going through. When you said someone thinks you are bipolar - I don't know. When things are going ok I almost feel elated - when things are real bad - I'm in the depths of depression. Do you feel that way?