Liz, I do know what it's like to feel alone in a group of people, it's worse than being alone. I can't imagine the pain that you're in, I hope that you're reaching out to someone locally. And if you do find yourself able to come for a visit, you know you're welcome anytime. I wish there was something I could do that would help, but all I can do is tell you that I love you, and send you a hug.