Well my good friend, I can see what God's trying to tell you. There is nothing wrong with a job just to pay the bills. People do it all the time. You can always find something to feel pride in and passionate about in cleaning houses, waiting tables at Denny's, working in a grocery store, a church office, a children's shelter, any job. There is no shame or lack of passion in any job if your head, heart and work ethic are in the right place.