thanks Steve
I'm concerned to tell much detail here still, my PALS is a member, though not active, but I worry that he could read me posting things that might alarm or concern him, so for now I'm reading what others are saying and getting into the 'feel' of the support of this place.
That way, I feel like I am getting to know some of you, sometimes just joining in on a discussion started by someone else and supporting them feels supportive to me as well. Or just being able to agree yeah I feel that way, or I appreciate the advice someone else gave here feels supportive too.
And then, I get a message like you just sent and feel supported in such a lovely way by having something personal sent just to me!
We will all get to know each other well through this great place of support, and I know that it is going to be one of my most important resources as time moves along.