Thank you lpcarr!
It is very painful to see him in decline little by little, this is horrible for him and for me that I have to witness his decline, and he is relying on me for his care. I feel a tremendous sense of responsability, love, and dedication to him. I question my self: what are you getting out of this dedication? It seems that it will be easy to walk away from him, but it is not for me, I feel in peace when I am with him than I am alone or with my daughter who is in college, very busy with her life. I love my kids, but he needs me more, I feel it is my duty as a human being to be with him until the end, and of course as for help because I can't do everything myself. Thanks to our friends, we are building a support system.