Thanks Meg I havent been on since my last post and I feel like my world is just coming to an end on top of my husband being sick I have (like we all do other life problems) my moods are just awful I am grumpy, my two year old has had tonsilitis for 3 weeks and we are working on getting a handle on that. I'm sad just thinking about things little things, that me and my husband used to do together and now we can't anymore. It kills me to know I won't have a life with him anymore. I have to feed him, feed my son it's not the way it's supposed to be. Why??? There's not an answer and I hate having my husband see me angry and upset it's not his fault and I need help on how to be a better person, my counselor comes to me once a week and he gives me suggestions. It's so hard for me to get closer to my husband because I'm going to lose him, I know if I don't I will regret it please help me if you can or let me know if you are going through any of this. Thanks for listening to me