hi, been having a real hard time sense the dr app.today was better. went to town with my daughter. rich is on overload. He has just been doing to much... I am getting weaker everyday. Somedays I just wonder how i can get out of bed. i mean I really am having trouble getting out of my bed.. frown... I will never be ready for this. How can we be? If i sound down tonight you should have heard from me yesterday...real bad... my family are wondering what happen to their wonderful happy mom/ couldnt fake it this week at all.. feel sorry for all of them.. I have been so good at hiding my true feelings about what is happening to my body everyday. looking at my arms that are just bone and skin where muscle if suppost to be? my hands look like my grandmothers. my face is not even me when i look in the mirror.... how do we stay happy? i will get myself back together soon. today was a good start... hope tomorrow is much better. Hugs, to you,