Hi Aly. I am puzzled why are you trying to keep away from the forum. Do you go to the Christian Thread? How are you doing? Are you saturating yourself in the Word? If you are and surrender your life daily to Jesus, His grace, presence, peace and contentment will be yours.
Step out in faith and our Lord will take it from there. Remember that our Father’s LOVE was so great that He provided His Son to satisfy His wrath for those that would come to Jesus. Everything He asks from us, is out of love!
1John3.1-3 “See what great love the Father has lavished on us, that we should be called children of God! And that is what we are! Dear friends, now we are children of God, and what we will be has not yet been made known. But we know that when Christ appears, we shall be like him, for we shall see him as he is. All who have this hope in him purify themselves, just as he is pure.”
Remember His “great love” when He asks you to venture out.