tripete
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- Joined
- Dec 5, 2014
- Messages
- 1,002
- Reason
- PALS
- Diagnosis
- 12/2014
- Country
- US
- State
- PA
- City
- Lancaster
With all the time I have on my hands I often think about why this happening to me. ALS is a horrific disease that, about the time you think you are handling your situation OK, you get blasted by another problem. One day is worse than the next and the end is more definite than at any time in my life but not definite enough that a time can be put on it.
My comfort is in knowing that I deserve worse. Plain and simply, I am a sinner who deserves to be lashed by the licking fires of hell, and tormented for all eternity by the whips of my own sins. This is the truth about me as I am judged by the perfect law of God ( see Romans 3:9-19 ). My own experience tells me that my thoughts are wicked and my days are filled with selfishness.
Given this reality, where then can I find hope and comfort?
In the knowledge that another suffered the eternity of hells flames for me. Christ, Jesus took the eternal judgment that I deserve from me. He through His Holy Spirit, has taught me, by replacing my heart of stone with a heart of flesh to see my sins and hate myself for them ( see Ezekiel 36 ). I am worthy in myself of nothing but eternal damnation. And yet, God sent His son to bear that for me, releasing me from the bondage of sin and death and making me instead a slave of righteousness ( see Romans 6:18 ).
Job questioned his condition and insisted that it was not due to any one sin he had committed. God answered him that he had no place in questioning his creator. God argued that He and He alone was without sin. That He knew all things and did what was best for His people. Job humbly repented. Paul pleaded with God three time that the thorn (some ailment sent by Satan to buffet him) would be removed from his side. God responded “My grace is sufficient for you, for My strength is made perfect in weakness.” ( see 2Corinthians 7 ).
I do not posses their knowledge or wisdom. And my life has not been good, it is littered by my constant sins. And yet, God through the shed blood of His Son has redeemed me. He has removed my blackened robe and replaced it with a pure white one washed in His blood ( see Zechariah 3:1-5 ).
If I where to have a tombstone or any other words of remembrance they would be those of Jacob when he said to Pharaoh "few and evil have been the days of the years of my life" (see Genesis 47:9 ).
My comfort is in knowing that I deserve worse. Plain and simply, I am a sinner who deserves to be lashed by the licking fires of hell, and tormented for all eternity by the whips of my own sins. This is the truth about me as I am judged by the perfect law of God ( see Romans 3:9-19 ). My own experience tells me that my thoughts are wicked and my days are filled with selfishness.
Given this reality, where then can I find hope and comfort?
In the knowledge that another suffered the eternity of hells flames for me. Christ, Jesus took the eternal judgment that I deserve from me. He through His Holy Spirit, has taught me, by replacing my heart of stone with a heart of flesh to see my sins and hate myself for them ( see Ezekiel 36 ). I am worthy in myself of nothing but eternal damnation. And yet, God sent His son to bear that for me, releasing me from the bondage of sin and death and making me instead a slave of righteousness ( see Romans 6:18 ).
Job questioned his condition and insisted that it was not due to any one sin he had committed. God answered him that he had no place in questioning his creator. God argued that He and He alone was without sin. That He knew all things and did what was best for His people. Job humbly repented. Paul pleaded with God three time that the thorn (some ailment sent by Satan to buffet him) would be removed from his side. God responded “My grace is sufficient for you, for My strength is made perfect in weakness.” ( see 2Corinthians 7 ).
I do not posses their knowledge or wisdom. And my life has not been good, it is littered by my constant sins. And yet, God through the shed blood of His Son has redeemed me. He has removed my blackened robe and replaced it with a pure white one washed in His blood ( see Zechariah 3:1-5 ).
If I where to have a tombstone or any other words of remembrance they would be those of Jacob when he said to Pharaoh "few and evil have been the days of the years of my life" (see Genesis 47:9 ).
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