NeedCourage
Active member
- Joined
- Feb 22, 2014
- Messages
- 73
- Reason
- Lost a loved one
- Diagnosis
- 12/2013
- Country
- US
- State
- PA
- City
- SW
I've tried so hard to keep it together these past 8 months or so ... but yesterday I started to cry in front of him and he held me quietly and said, "It's ok - it's normal ... there would be something wrong if you didn't cry. You've been doing such a good job..."
OMG - him comforting me. I'm still crying this morning. I feel overwhelmed with sadness and grief. I was fairly collected but I think the disappointment in Cleveland with Dr. Onders and the DPS surgery decision (NOT to) just pushed me over the edge of sorrow.
He's dying (I never said that) and I'm watching it and I'm already on an anti-dep. and a anti-anx. med. max doses. Depression has been a lifelong struggle. And I'm so damned sensitive and don't know if I'm doing what I should be doing to help him - or even doing it properly.... now I AM ranting and rambling.
I thought I would bust if I didn't let it out & tell someone - there is absolutely no one else. No one.
I know you understand and forgive me - even if I can't.
Love to all who are in this battle with me/us. Nancy
OMG - him comforting me. I'm still crying this morning. I feel overwhelmed with sadness and grief. I was fairly collected but I think the disappointment in Cleveland with Dr. Onders and the DPS surgery decision (NOT to) just pushed me over the edge of sorrow.
He's dying (I never said that) and I'm watching it and I'm already on an anti-dep. and a anti-anx. med. max doses. Depression has been a lifelong struggle. And I'm so damned sensitive and don't know if I'm doing what I should be doing to help him - or even doing it properly.... now I AM ranting and rambling.
I thought I would bust if I didn't let it out & tell someone - there is absolutely no one else. No one.
I know you understand and forgive me - even if I can't.
Love to all who are in this battle with me/us. Nancy