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FeelingTooFarAway

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Today I realized just how much I've heard, "There's nothing we can do," "There's nothing you can do," or when I've asked for advice from people around me outside of this community "I don't know what to say," or "It's up to you to make the decision." I just want to vent for a moment that's all. But if I'm calling you asking you advice it means I don't know what decision to make. I'm asking you for help. I don't know either. Most of it I understand is not meant as a complete dismissal. Some people just don't know. But it's so hard to hear it over and over. It makes me so tired. I feel this way about doctors too...

So thinking on dad. Here's a little bit of what I thought today.

Thoughts on a Bus Ride.

“There's nothing we can do.” That's all they can say to you.
Cause truthfully they don't know but, somehow they expect you to...
Go ahead and find them- The Answers.
Grasp at hope, hope it binds you up, and blinds you from perpetuate disaster
Now if we’re talking in truths. Truthfully it’s hard to wake up.
When all you have is askers and no findings… or solace.

I’m tired of “That’s all that we can do.” Tired of, “I’m sorry but it’s up to you.”
The implied hope that you’re lucky, so just go ahead and choose.
When I have no ability to accomplish what they’re supposed to do.
I have less experience- too much emotion to cram more information in
Not enough applications to win but… too much “money” to get aid in the end?
Not enough to eat or food in the fridge. Too much or too little sleep.
I’m overwhelmed and yet it’s said, “There’s nothing I can do.”

I can’t fix it, I can’t do anything perfect to ease the pain of losing you.
I can’t find the words for apologies- Too guilty Too angry Too sad
To think of anything. TOO MUCH love sometimes to even breathe.
Would you like another truth? Truthfully you haven’t left-
But I already miss you.
Yet still it’s said, “There’s nothing you can do.”

Nothing to ease it all, oil the gears, let you be brand new.
If only I could take that place and let you be all that only you can do
Be a Dad, a Best Friend, Lover, Protector, Son, Husband
Be there for your other daughter when her “Big Day” is all planned.
At least you could be there for one of them
Instead of none of us with none of you
I wish for once to hear, “There’s something we can do.”
 
Very, very, beautiful! And so very true! My thoughts are with you this evening, and my prayers are with you and your family from now on......thank you for that thought, I will look forward to more!
 
Well written. It brought tears to my eyes, and maybe a little understanding to what some of my husband's family is feeling. But here is something that I can do, and that is pray for you and yours. Take care, and what a beautiful way to vent.
Paulette
 
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