faithandlove
Distinguished member
- Joined
- May 22, 2016
- Messages
- 174
- Reason
- PALS
- Diagnosis
- 06/2016
- Country
- US
- State
- NV
- City
- Reno
I had a rough night last night. I finally reached another loss and it is time to use the hoyer lift. I was hoping my legs would continue to work for a couple more months because my husband is having hip replacement surgery on Monday and he is my CALS from 2 pm until 9 am. (I have care lined up while he is in the hospital, and when he returns)
I tried to get off the commode and it took 4 attempts. I finally got on my hospital bed, and my husband got my legs in, blankets over me, and my face mask (trilogy). At 2 am I woke up, pulled the mask off, and realized I could not move my legs, and could not turn to the right or left. I forgot I had ALS and, with the mask on, I felt like I was buried alive in a box and I had to get out. I screamed for my husband, but he did not hear me until I was in full panic mode. It took me awhile to calm down, but with his help I ended sleeping in my wheelchair.
I've always been a super strong woman, but this monster is taking that away too. I hate what is does to all of us. Sometimes it is just too much to handle.
Hugs,
Deb
I tried to get off the commode and it took 4 attempts. I finally got on my hospital bed, and my husband got my legs in, blankets over me, and my face mask (trilogy). At 2 am I woke up, pulled the mask off, and realized I could not move my legs, and could not turn to the right or left. I forgot I had ALS and, with the mask on, I felt like I was buried alive in a box and I had to get out. I screamed for my husband, but he did not hear me until I was in full panic mode. It took me awhile to calm down, but with his help I ended sleeping in my wheelchair.
I've always been a super strong woman, but this monster is taking that away too. I hate what is does to all of us. Sometimes it is just too much to handle.
Hugs,
Deb