momofsixkids60
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- Sep 25, 2010
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- 06/2011
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B4 U shoot me down, (Richard and Ai, jk), I really didn't know where this post should go.
To my wonderful forum family,
I want to thank you so much 4 the warm welcome back! On July 22/23; I left packed my pills, a small bag (ha not me) & a bag full of letters and headed north. I crossed into the great state of NC; found the 1st decent looking hotel & rented a room for the night. People are so kind there. One gentleman actually removed my chair for me and helped me out of my van & all he asked for in return was a "thank you".
As soon as I got in the room, I set out to complete my mission. I placed all my children's letters (1 4 ea of their Bdays and special events in their lives. After I had accomplished that, I proceeded to my final task at hand. I laid out all my pills and 1 by 1 swallowed them. I don't remember much after the 3rd bottle, but I knew I had brought enough to complete the job.
I awoke many days later in a hospital & was so angry that they said I fought them and had me in soft restraints. The only family member to come and see me was my darling daughter Lindsay. My A$$HOLE husband had refused to let them come. Half of me understands but the other is still working on that end. Well after much medical intervention (along with bloodclots in my right leg), I remain in the hospital until Thursday.
At this time; I come 2 U my real family and ask 4 4giveness. I am sorry for trying 2 take the easy way out and I have promised not 2 do it again. Suicide they say is selfish but in my case. I wasnt being selfish. October starts my 2 yrs of onset although the diagnosis wasn't finalized until July. I have gone from a "vibrant" woman to 1 who can't walk to the bathroom 5 ft away. The financial burden has put a financial strain
To my wonderful forum family,
I want to thank you so much 4 the warm welcome back! On July 22/23; I left packed my pills, a small bag (ha not me) & a bag full of letters and headed north. I crossed into the great state of NC; found the 1st decent looking hotel & rented a room for the night. People are so kind there. One gentleman actually removed my chair for me and helped me out of my van & all he asked for in return was a "thank you".
As soon as I got in the room, I set out to complete my mission. I placed all my children's letters (1 4 ea of their Bdays and special events in their lives. After I had accomplished that, I proceeded to my final task at hand. I laid out all my pills and 1 by 1 swallowed them. I don't remember much after the 3rd bottle, but I knew I had brought enough to complete the job.
I awoke many days later in a hospital & was so angry that they said I fought them and had me in soft restraints. The only family member to come and see me was my darling daughter Lindsay. My A$$HOLE husband had refused to let them come. Half of me understands but the other is still working on that end. Well after much medical intervention (along with bloodclots in my right leg), I remain in the hospital until Thursday.
At this time; I come 2 U my real family and ask 4 4giveness. I am sorry for trying 2 take the easy way out and I have promised not 2 do it again. Suicide they say is selfish but in my case. I wasnt being selfish. October starts my 2 yrs of onset although the diagnosis wasn't finalized until July. I have gone from a "vibrant" woman to 1 who can't walk to the bathroom 5 ft away. The financial burden has put a financial strain