kmendsley
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- Feb 19, 2010
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- Highland
I was told this last week from the dr. Said I definately had a neurodegenerative disease but didn't know which one it was just yet.
It hit me today for some reason...I couldn't tell you why..There wasn't an instance where I couldn't do something...work was realtively horrible as it usually is...not much different there...but I had a feeling today.
I just realized what this means...maybe it was because I was talking to my mom and said something to the extent of...well I don't know all I know is that I have already had a diagnosis of neurodegenerative disease and muscle connection tissue disorder. Hearing it come from my mouth...and the realitvely uncomfortable silence from my mother after...did something.
I am a little sad, and mostly just tired. I want a final diagnosis of something...anything( ok yes obviously I know a curable disease would be perferrable ;-) ) But honestly, it doesn't matter at this point except that I get an answer. I want to know if I should be looking for another job. I want to know if I should be saving my money up for equipment because insurance is stupid. I want to know...but God likes to keep me in the dark on this one.
Anyway...sorry I rambled...just in a weird kind of place. Prayers to you my Pals and Cals friends. Love you all so much.
It hit me today for some reason...I couldn't tell you why..There wasn't an instance where I couldn't do something...work was realtively horrible as it usually is...not much different there...but I had a feeling today.
I just realized what this means...maybe it was because I was talking to my mom and said something to the extent of...well I don't know all I know is that I have already had a diagnosis of neurodegenerative disease and muscle connection tissue disorder. Hearing it come from my mouth...and the realitvely uncomfortable silence from my mother after...did something.
I am a little sad, and mostly just tired. I want a final diagnosis of something...anything( ok yes obviously I know a curable disease would be perferrable ;-) ) But honestly, it doesn't matter at this point except that I get an answer. I want to know if I should be looking for another job. I want to know if I should be saving my money up for equipment because insurance is stupid. I want to know...but God likes to keep me in the dark on this one.
Anyway...sorry I rambled...just in a weird kind of place. Prayers to you my Pals and Cals friends. Love you all so much.