Chris_b
Active member
- Joined
- Sep 8, 2010
- Messages
- 84
- Reason
- PALS
- Diagnosis
- 07/2010
- Country
- UK
- State
- merseyside, England
- City
- St helens
One minute your up and having a great time, then straight back down to a real low.
It just seems that when something good happens, a bad thing has to follow up and kick you were it hurts. This is what its been like for the last 10 months or so.
The latest is on such a high from our fabulous wedding day, then within 2 weeks my brother in law decided his life was too bad and decided to kill himself! Its brought us back down in a shot. Why? what could possibly be so bad you have to do this?
I sad and angry at the same time, sad at the thought of him feeling he had no option and angry at th FACT he was in perfect health, 36, and a baby of only 9 months! everything to live for in my opinion.
Im feeling quite low, things seem to be changing quite a bit more, stuff getting harder, feeling more trapped, It should be me wanting to end everything! but i love life, my family and my friends no matter how tough things get.
Sorry for the bit of a rant, just so frustrated.
It just seems that when something good happens, a bad thing has to follow up and kick you were it hurts. This is what its been like for the last 10 months or so.
The latest is on such a high from our fabulous wedding day, then within 2 weeks my brother in law decided his life was too bad and decided to kill himself! Its brought us back down in a shot. Why? what could possibly be so bad you have to do this?
I sad and angry at the same time, sad at the thought of him feeling he had no option and angry at th FACT he was in perfect health, 36, and a baby of only 9 months! everything to live for in my opinion.
Im feeling quite low, things seem to be changing quite a bit more, stuff getting harder, feeling more trapped, It should be me wanting to end everything! but i love life, my family and my friends no matter how tough things get.
Sorry for the bit of a rant, just so frustrated.