Dear Iris, please don't worry - I am using a walker -especially when I go out of the house - and have the pwc in the ready when the time comes. I really think the stresses of the past few weeks have been more than I should be juggling.
Yesterday Tim loaded me in the 6-wheeler and we took a picnic into the Black Hills National Forest that is adjacent to the Ranch. The smell of the pines, and the sage after a rain, with the beautiful vistas from the rocks and the plateaus helped center me.
I was in bed by 8:00 last night and slept till 8:00 this morning. I have asked my son to find a care facility near him for my 84 year old mother who suffers from Parkinson's and frontal lobe dementia. She is becoming more difficult for me to deal with and the stress of her care, even tho she is in an assisted living facility near me, is getting to me. She is angry with me for not keeping her at home, and doesn't grasp the fact I have my own health issues to fight.
Couple that with the busy season at the B&B and the frustration of having to watch while others do the work (and not always to my standards!) My new motto is to strive for progress and not for perfection .... but it "ain't" always easy for a gal who is a type A personality and a detail, workaholic!
I told a friend yesterday that ALS is a blessing in disguise -- it has taught me to slow down, listen more, and to fine tune my patience!
I am grateful for you and the others on the forum who display such courage, humor, and empathy. Thanks for adding to the goodness in my life.
Hugs and loving thoughts.
Diane