Oh Cukita, I am sorry! Hardest thing about this -worse than ANYTHING, I think, is the way we have to become dependent on others. I asked the question as I am still trying to decide between a carer who is unstable and sometimes violent, though the rest of the time a good carer, (sorry, I have already said that elsewhere) and being alone. Cannot afford to pay for a helper. Such a big decision. Do not want to regret making the wrong choice. Looks like I should hang on to him, after all.