sunandsea
Distinguished member
- Joined
- Jun 17, 2016
- Messages
- 144
- Reason
- Lost a loved one
- Diagnosis
- 11/2014
- Country
- US
- State
- VA
- City
- Fairfax
I'm sitting here and trying to catch up on so many posts and so many stories. I've tried to do this a few times and it's difficult to keep reading. Maybe it's the memories and the reminders of what life was like. My heart goes out to all of you dealing with the disease, either as cals or pals, and all those who are grieving because they have lost someone dear and loved. I know I should be replying to so many and I don't know what to say. I used to sit up and read the posts and learn and get encouragement and feel connected to others going through difficult days and now I'm sitting alone, wishing so desperately that those days were still here. I miss my pals so much. There are times I still can't believe he's gone. When do you believe it? When do the waves of grief that come over you suddenly and without warning, stop? I don't want to not remember and it hurts to remember. Sorry - just rambling thoughts.