starente15
Senior member
- Joined
- Oct 27, 2014
- Messages
- 809
- Reason
- Lost a loved one
- Diagnosis
- 10/2017
- Country
- US
- State
- NJ
- City
- Northern
Hi everyone. I was doing pretty well over the summer. The flashbacks ended, I still missed my dad but I wasn't obsessing over death and dying every day. I got hired full-time at my job after six months as a consultant so that was great news.
Next month, 11/28, will be the one year anniversary which I can't even believe.
Anxiety is starting to creep back in and I find myself randomly crying these days. I'm feeling overwhelmed at work, doubting myself and feeling like I could fail at any time.
For those who remember, two weeks after my dad passed, I was laid off from my previous job. I feel that the time I was away caring for him played a role in that decision even though I'll never be sure. I have this fear that if I get too emotional and fall back into anxiety/depression it could affect my work at my new job and the same thing could happen.
Really just need a place to vent as I don't think this is rational but my mind keeps going there.
Next month, 11/28, will be the one year anniversary which I can't even believe.
Anxiety is starting to creep back in and I find myself randomly crying these days. I'm feeling overwhelmed at work, doubting myself and feeling like I could fail at any time.
For those who remember, two weeks after my dad passed, I was laid off from my previous job. I feel that the time I was away caring for him played a role in that decision even though I'll never be sure. I have this fear that if I get too emotional and fall back into anxiety/depression it could affect my work at my new job and the same thing could happen.
Really just need a place to vent as I don't think this is rational but my mind keeps going there.