poppies
Distinguished member
- Joined
- Apr 2, 2013
- Messages
- 233
- Reason
- Lost a loved one
- Diagnosis
- 02/2013
- Country
- SA
- State
- Kwazulu Natal
- City
- Durban
Hi everyone. I am reaching out because I am feeling so down and wonder whether this is normal. It has been five and a half months since Iven's passing and I still feel so empty and lost. Life goes on and I am busy looking after my girls, the dogs, the house, staying on top of my studies, and I am doing my marathon training again. We have been on a couple of lovely trips to beautiful places here in South Africa. We leave on Thursday to spend ten days in beautiful Cape Town with my eldest brother. I am planning to relocate there in 18 months when both my girls will be at University there. But despite all these positives I still feel numb. My heart just hurts. I just want Iven back. I miss him so very much. Every moment of every day. Everyone else around me seems to have moved on and I try to put on a brave face and pretend I have too, but I still feel so much pain and sadness. I feel lost inside. I just don't know what to do. Will I ever feel joy again?