Miss
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- Joined
- Apr 11, 2010
- Messages
- 1,782
- Reason
- Lost a loved one
- Diagnosis
- 04/2010
- Country
- US
- State
- In the Land of Cotton
- City
- Way Down South
Tomorrow, it will be one year since Terry died. It's just so hard to believe. Because of all of the deaths in the family this year - mother-in-law, father-in-law, brother-in-law (Terry's twin) - sometimes, it seems longer. Today, it feels like it was just last week. Normally, I am not a "death day" person, but I will have to say that I am really having a hard reaction to this. The numbness is wearing off. I feel very raw with emotion. I read the following months ago, and it truly sums up how I feel when I try to express my grief in words:
I sometimes hold it half a sin
To put in words the grief I feel;
For words, like Nature, half reveal
And half conceal the Soul within.
But, for the unquiet heart and brain,
A use in measured language lies;
The sad mechanic exercise,
Like dull narcotics, numbing pain.
In words, like weeds, I'll wrap me o'er,
Like coarsest clothes against the cold:
But that large grief which these enfold
Is given in outline and no more.
Alfred Lord Tennyson
In Memoriam Section V
I am so grateful to have all of the wonderful people on the forum that truly understand what I am feeling when I cannot put it into words.
I sometimes hold it half a sin
To put in words the grief I feel;
For words, like Nature, half reveal
And half conceal the Soul within.
But, for the unquiet heart and brain,
A use in measured language lies;
The sad mechanic exercise,
Like dull narcotics, numbing pain.
In words, like weeds, I'll wrap me o'er,
Like coarsest clothes against the cold:
But that large grief which these enfold
Is given in outline and no more.
Alfred Lord Tennyson
In Memoriam Section V
I am so grateful to have all of the wonderful people on the forum that truly understand what I am feeling when I cannot put it into words.