The lack of phone calls from friends (and sometimes family) is hard. About a two months ago, I just decided to start foisting myself on people, and it worked! I beat them down until they make actual plans to get together! Now, they actually think of me when they make plans sometimes! I will let myself tear over occassionally but I don't cry, and I do talk about Terry, but only in an upbeat way. Slowly, I think they are realizing that I am not the poor pathetic widow that will ruin the party!
Happy 4th of July to you. If you know of a party, just go crash it!