arkallen
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Our twelve piece dinner service, precious wedding gift cutlery that we save for special occasions, tossed into the stainless steel tumble dryer on heavy-duty cycle. Let’s throw in the Wedgewood too! Or perhaps it is more like the sound of the many women of my household (before they started running off and getting married!) talking to me all at once and dragging their amassed 60 fingernails over a dozen chalkboards at the same time. Imagine a sound so cataclysmic, so jarring, so apocalyptic that you would sooner have your teeth pulled than bear it a minute more. Such is the calamitous, dreadful sound of B4 crawling around the house with a mangled gearbox. She’s chucked a cog! Blown a gasket! Pulled a hammy!
I am suddenly confined to barracks, with emotional results that are, in my habitually introspective way, out of all proportion to the scale of the problem. I have spent an unprecedented three (3, THREE!) consecutive days at home; and it would have been five days straight but for one brief and nasty outing in the car with good old Bugger, the manual wheelchair that no longer fits the bill. I can’t recall such incarceration since we were farming many years ago, when I could happily stay inside the front gate a week at a time; occupying myself with a thrilling array of machinery and playing mother hen to fifty thousand chickens. A few enforced days at home probably sounds delicious to many of my readers. Others will wonder what the fuss is all about, having spent five months, or five years, in confinement. But it’s been a tough week; one in which the spectre of the future did its wraithlike best to invade the present, an apparition whose dimensions are known only to me.
In the moment of calamity – and in the hours and days that follow – an awful lot can pass through one’s mind. Some folks can simply say, “Stuff happens” and move on. Not me! I have voices inside my head, all of them bogus, but all of them persuasive!
"Æthelred the Unready"
Æthelred, a Medieval King of England whose reign was so plagued by underachievement that history has branded him forever with that single, most unfortunate remark: unready. What an epithet! Apparently little ever went well for Æthelred. Invasion, impotence, vacillation, and treachery were the hallmarks of his kingdom. Is there such a thing as congenital inadequacy syndrome (CIS)? More importantly, do I qualify? I don’t think there are too many pilgrims on earth who have not laboured, secretly perhaps, under the insecurity of Æthelred.
What I actually believe about all this is one of the most demanding tenets of faith:
In hindsight there seems to me nothing that has proved more true than this; however in the present tense there is nothing I find harder to believe! So often throughout my life the difficult circumstances have proved, in the course of time, to have been immensely productive. Salvation has come! That knowledge should be hugely reassuring, and yet I find over and again that a trying circumstance simply discourages me, when it should fill me with anticipation for the gain that lies ahead.
Used haphazardly, this New Testament truth can be scandalously dismissive. For example this week a New Zealand man narrowly escaped the devastation of Christchurch and began the journey back home to his wife and two small children in Lyttelton, where the earthquake was centred. Finding the Lyttelton tunnel blocked he took to a walking track, messaging his wife that he was just ten minutes away. He never arrived; killed by an aftershock rockslide, meters from his own door. It makes no sense to apply this thought to the tragedy of others; nor can we say “everything happens for a reason”. Often enough there is no reason, tragedy is senseless.
What is true, I think, is that the Almighty is at work beside us in all things, even as the drama of this life unfolds.
I don’t think the shadow of Æthelred is cast over my life. Nor yours!
Rejoice!
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Æthelred the Unready - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia, or Æthelred II (c. 968 – 23 April 1016), was king of England (978–1013 and 1014–1016). Better translated as ‘ill-advised’ his nickname has probably contributed to an un-earned reputation. But it makes a good story!
I am suddenly confined to barracks, with emotional results that are, in my habitually introspective way, out of all proportion to the scale of the problem. I have spent an unprecedented three (3, THREE!) consecutive days at home; and it would have been five days straight but for one brief and nasty outing in the car with good old Bugger, the manual wheelchair that no longer fits the bill. I can’t recall such incarceration since we were farming many years ago, when I could happily stay inside the front gate a week at a time; occupying myself with a thrilling array of machinery and playing mother hen to fifty thousand chickens. A few enforced days at home probably sounds delicious to many of my readers. Others will wonder what the fuss is all about, having spent five months, or five years, in confinement. But it’s been a tough week; one in which the spectre of the future did its wraithlike best to invade the present, an apparition whose dimensions are known only to me.
In the moment of calamity – and in the hours and days that follow – an awful lot can pass through one’s mind. Some folks can simply say, “Stuff happens” and move on. Not me! I have voices inside my head, all of them bogus, but all of them persuasive!
There are ‘What Ifs’: What if I hadn’t gone to the corner to waive Little One and Favourite Wife off to work?
There are ‘Should Is’: Should I have been more prepared? Should I have paid more attention to the odd noise that has been slowly developing for months?
There are Eternal Questions: If everything happens for a reason, what’s the reason?
There is Superstition: What might I have done to ward off calamity?
There is Illogical Relief: Thank goodness it happened near home!
There is Blame: Who did this to me? Who dropped the ball?
There is also Cosmic Blame: Is there an evil power conspiring to ruin me?
There is Existential Anxiety: God? Are you there? Am I here?
There is Guilt: What did I do wrong to make this happen?
There are ‘Should Is’: Should I have been more prepared? Should I have paid more attention to the odd noise that has been slowly developing for months?
There are Eternal Questions: If everything happens for a reason, what’s the reason?
There is Superstition: What might I have done to ward off calamity?
There is Illogical Relief: Thank goodness it happened near home!
There is Blame: Who did this to me? Who dropped the ball?
There is also Cosmic Blame: Is there an evil power conspiring to ruin me?
There is Existential Anxiety: God? Are you there? Am I here?
There is Guilt: What did I do wrong to make this happen?
And then there is the long, long shadow of Æthelred the Unready!
"Æthelred the Unready"
Æthelred, a Medieval King of England whose reign was so plagued by underachievement that history has branded him forever with that single, most unfortunate remark: unready. What an epithet! Apparently little ever went well for Æthelred. Invasion, impotence, vacillation, and treachery were the hallmarks of his kingdom. Is there such a thing as congenital inadequacy syndrome (CIS)? More importantly, do I qualify? I don’t think there are too many pilgrims on earth who have not laboured, secretly perhaps, under the insecurity of Æthelred.
What I actually believe about all this is one of the most demanding tenets of faith:
“In all things God works for the good for those who love Him,
who have been called according to his purpose”. Romans 8:28
who have been called according to his purpose”. Romans 8:28
In hindsight there seems to me nothing that has proved more true than this; however in the present tense there is nothing I find harder to believe! So often throughout my life the difficult circumstances have proved, in the course of time, to have been immensely productive. Salvation has come! That knowledge should be hugely reassuring, and yet I find over and again that a trying circumstance simply discourages me, when it should fill me with anticipation for the gain that lies ahead.
Used haphazardly, this New Testament truth can be scandalously dismissive. For example this week a New Zealand man narrowly escaped the devastation of Christchurch and began the journey back home to his wife and two small children in Lyttelton, where the earthquake was centred. Finding the Lyttelton tunnel blocked he took to a walking track, messaging his wife that he was just ten minutes away. He never arrived; killed by an aftershock rockslide, meters from his own door. It makes no sense to apply this thought to the tragedy of others; nor can we say “everything happens for a reason”. Often enough there is no reason, tragedy is senseless.
What is true, I think, is that the Almighty is at work beside us in all things, even as the drama of this life unfolds.
I don’t think the shadow of Æthelred is cast over my life. Nor yours!
Rejoice!
_________________________________________
Æthelred the Unready - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia, or Æthelred II (c. 968 – 23 April 1016), was king of England (978–1013 and 1014–1016). Better translated as ‘ill-advised’ his nickname has probably contributed to an un-earned reputation. But it makes a good story!
