didittomyself
Member
- Joined
- Jun 26, 2015
- Messages
- 10
- Reason
- PALS
- Diagnosis
- 06/2015
- Country
- US
- State
- AR
- City
- Little Rock
I think part of what is also bothering me is that as I've earlier this year I became single and am now living on my own. I wonder how others have coped in this way? Thanks in advance. good to be here on this board.
Bear
I am also in the same boat. I have zero family support. I am looking at going from my house to a state-funded facility. (I am not a veteran or financially well off.) I am currently on FML from my job. This is one of the many reasons, I am not coping well with this. I am new to this board but its seems most of the PALS that post here are 1: super human beings and 2. have great family support at home.
I can still walk a little and use my arms and hands and talk. (very grateful for that) but i can no longer clean my house or upkeep my yard. I also gave up driving. I have a friend who buys my groceries once a week and does a little house cleaning but she lives 3 hours away. I am basically living off of Ensure and whatever she cooks once a week for me. She as informed me that after this weekend she won't be able to help for a couple of weeks. (Another reality for me, life goes on the the rest no matter what you are going through. Don't get me wrong, she has been an Angel and I am so grateful for her.) Another friend mows my yard about every two weeks. Another friend bought me a month supply of the Deena Protocol supplements but I have not taken them yet. (Probably, a waste of her $390.) These are all wonderful friends, i am very thankful for them but they can only do so much. (what they have done has been awesome though.)
I had been in denial about whats going on with me but now I am depressed and fight anxiety all the time. I can't watch TV or listen to the radio anymore and its very hard for me to go outside in public. I read the bible a little and talk to people on the phone. But now i am becoming a broken record. I am looking for a magical answer and there is not one for me.
On Monday, I go for my second opinion. After this appointment, I am going to have make to big-boy decisions. In all honesty, as much as I don't want to die, I wish I lived in Oregon so I could legally have an option how i wanted to end my life.
Well, I need to take a break from this. I hope one day, i can be more positive.