HeartbrokenInNM
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- Jan 20, 2012
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- 23
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- Loved one DX
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- US
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- NM
- City
- Albuquerque
11/20/2012 -- On this forever-to-be-infamous day my beloved angel, Nancy, lost her courageous battle with ALS. I titled this "Two Lived End Simultaneously" because she was my whole world and my life as I knew it ended at precisely the same moment. I am beyond devastated but I wanted to thank the many of you here who offered some measure of comfort to each of us with the compassion shown here and the information available. Though none of you could have known the special person she was, everyone she met saw it (cliche but actually true) though I alone knew the true depth of her beauty. I was privileged for 22 years and simply cannot fathom a world without her in it. I will grieve for the rest of my days.
There were many other wonderful people involved in my wife's struggle to whom I will be grateful but as is typically the case, even the best treatment does not stop this beast of a disease. I can't seem to escape the feeling that all of those efforts were in vain. While I struggle now with my own devastation, on this Thanksgiving day I find myself enormously grateful for the 22 years we had together while I weep without shame for what she lost, what humanity lost and lastly for my own loss. I was immensely proud to be her husband and I will wear my wedding ring and maintain that pride for the rest of my life -- whatever form that may take. The username I chose a year ago when I first signed up at this site fails to convey what I now feel. I am so far beyond heartbroken now that mere words could never adequately express it.
For all of you here that have already gone through what I now face, for those of you in the process of dealing with this and those who have yet to make an appearance, my heart (what's left of it) goes out to all of you. Good luck and best wishes.
There were many other wonderful people involved in my wife's struggle to whom I will be grateful but as is typically the case, even the best treatment does not stop this beast of a disease. I can't seem to escape the feeling that all of those efforts were in vain. While I struggle now with my own devastation, on this Thanksgiving day I find myself enormously grateful for the 22 years we had together while I weep without shame for what she lost, what humanity lost and lastly for my own loss. I was immensely proud to be her husband and I will wear my wedding ring and maintain that pride for the rest of my life -- whatever form that may take. The username I chose a year ago when I first signed up at this site fails to convey what I now feel. I am so far beyond heartbroken now that mere words could never adequately express it.
For all of you here that have already gone through what I now face, for those of you in the process of dealing with this and those who have yet to make an appearance, my heart (what's left of it) goes out to all of you. Good luck and best wishes.