first i want to say thank you! everyone! ive been feeling so horrble with out her and you all have brought some tears of joy to me

to ottowa girl thank you so much your message was so touching and i do wish so badly to hear her laugh again

i hope someday i can be as helpful to others as you all try to be here

its very hard to not think about her and burst out in tears, it doesnt even matter where i go something always reminds of her. I really hope to plant that garden as soon as possible i think it may help even if i break down during the process. I really am lost as to how to get over the loss of her. She was a person i looked up to in so many ways. I so wish to be like her and carry on who she is through me but at this time all i feel is loss and pain

thank you all again really it is really nice to know that i am not the only one who is going though this. Mybest wishes go out to all of you and everyone you love. May god keep my grandmaother until i see her again one day.