Jason's Dream
Distinguished member
- Joined
- Sep 5, 2010
- Messages
- 310
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- US
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- City
- On My Own
Hard to believe we said goodbye 2 months ago today... even harder to believe that you are gone.
I miss you laughing at how I reacted over finding a spider, or by you sneaking up on me. I miss walking to classes with you and taking classes with you.
I miss your gentleness, your patience. I miss being able to lean upon you.
I miss coming home from class and finding you asleep on the couch with William asleep in your arms.
I miss seeing you read your books or doing your crossword puzzle with your paper folded ever so neatly.
I miss playing strategy games at our apartment, or playing cards on the floor of our living room.
I miss playing gin why we waited at IHOP for our food to be brought out.
I miss our Saturday brunches and doing our weekly grocery shopping together.
I miss how we seemed to do everything together.
I miss how our date night for the week would consist of us taking William to the mall, getting a smoothie, and sitting and watching him play in the play area there while we shared our smoothie.
I miss everything about you, ....about us.. .. quite simply, .....I miss you. ♥
I went to our house today. Went through some things. Found some old cards we had given each other.
One card I gave you on the Father's Day right after we found out we were expecting our first child (William). Not knowing if our little one was a boy or a girl, but oh the dreams, the excitement we had, planning a lifetime of happiness. Who'd have thought that a "lifetime" would consist of 3 very short more years?...
Another card ...you gave to me, ..had your wit, your humor, our banter, and reminders of how very much you loved and wanted me. I felt complete with you. I felt I could be myself around you like no other. Such a love, a friendship, a bond... such openess. I miss being able to lean on you emotionally, but also physically... laying my head on your chest, right below your shoulder, nestled right under your chin. I miss feeling the security, warmth, and love, your arms around me seemed to emanate. I miss holding hands with you.
Our walks around our neighborhood with our son in his little car. I miss watching you play trains with him, read books to him, watch his videos with him.
Time doesn't seem to ease my pain, as I sat by your grave again today, and put another lonely love letter on your grave, just like each other holiday or anniversary before it.. I play our songs at your grave like you can somehow hear. I talk to you, but there is no reply...
Quite simply, my arms long to hold you, my heart aches to be near you, and my life is not complete without you....
I miss you.
For love, for always.
~ Becca
I miss you laughing at how I reacted over finding a spider, or by you sneaking up on me. I miss walking to classes with you and taking classes with you.
I miss your gentleness, your patience. I miss being able to lean upon you.
I miss coming home from class and finding you asleep on the couch with William asleep in your arms.
I miss seeing you read your books or doing your crossword puzzle with your paper folded ever so neatly.
I miss playing strategy games at our apartment, or playing cards on the floor of our living room.
I miss playing gin why we waited at IHOP for our food to be brought out.
I miss our Saturday brunches and doing our weekly grocery shopping together.
I miss how we seemed to do everything together.
I miss how our date night for the week would consist of us taking William to the mall, getting a smoothie, and sitting and watching him play in the play area there while we shared our smoothie.
I miss everything about you, ....about us.. .. quite simply, .....I miss you. ♥
I went to our house today. Went through some things. Found some old cards we had given each other.
One card I gave you on the Father's Day right after we found out we were expecting our first child (William). Not knowing if our little one was a boy or a girl, but oh the dreams, the excitement we had, planning a lifetime of happiness. Who'd have thought that a "lifetime" would consist of 3 very short more years?...
Another card ...you gave to me, ..had your wit, your humor, our banter, and reminders of how very much you loved and wanted me. I felt complete with you. I felt I could be myself around you like no other. Such a love, a friendship, a bond... such openess. I miss being able to lean on you emotionally, but also physically... laying my head on your chest, right below your shoulder, nestled right under your chin. I miss feeling the security, warmth, and love, your arms around me seemed to emanate. I miss holding hands with you.
Our walks around our neighborhood with our son in his little car. I miss watching you play trains with him, read books to him, watch his videos with him.
Time doesn't seem to ease my pain, as I sat by your grave again today, and put another lonely love letter on your grave, just like each other holiday or anniversary before it.. I play our songs at your grave like you can somehow hear. I talk to you, but there is no reply...
Quite simply, my arms long to hold you, my heart aches to be near you, and my life is not complete without you....
I miss you.
For love, for always.
~ Becca