penny1
Active member
- Joined
- May 4, 2009
- Messages
- 65
- Reason
- Lost a loved one
- Diagnosis
- 10/2005
- Country
- US
- State
- MI
- City
- Lowell
You may not know me, but I know you. I have been reading your post for years. Now that I have time I would like you to know something about my husband. He was the love of my life, best friend, fishing and hunting partner, my everthing.
He was born 7-20-1951, DX 10-25-5005, earned his wings 6-7-2011.
Three mths have passed, my memories are now mostly of the first 25 years the last 6 years as his ALS progressed have been taken over by happier memories. That is part of the problem, now I only miss him. When he first died and I knew he was so tired it was easier to let him go. We held his memorial in a park on what would have been his 60th birthday. Below is most of what I said at the memorial, maybe it will help you find peace. I am praying that it will help me.
What is meant to be, will be. I am so pround of the grace John showed in life, his legacy to all, when faced with adversity the measure of a person is the grace in which you handle it. In his darkest hour he faced things we can only imagine with his usual sense of humor.
As his time was growing short, we talked about wedding rings have no beginning or end. They are forever like our love. I told him when he got his angel wings he could run, jump, fish, and hunt. With his usual smirky smile he as forcefully as he could muster said "then get my tennis shoes" He was ready.
32 1/2 years ago 2 hearts began to beat as 1. There was no I, only we. in the moment that John earned his wings 1 heart had to beat for 2. That heart my heart was filled with 2 of the most conflicting emotions, half was breaking and the other half soared with freedom, and what remains 1 heart filled with love and peace and a desire to make him proud.
What is meant to be, will be. I recieved a small statue when I has 5, a red haired boy and a yorkie dog. John had reddish hair and Samson is half yorkie. The first song we danced to at our wedding was David Allen Coe "Would you lay with me"
would you lay with me in afield of stone if my needs were strong would you lay with me
should my lips grow dry would you wet them dear in the midnight hour... wipe the blood away from my dieing hand if I give myself to you .....will you love me when i am down and out in my time of trial will you stand by me....
( find this song get a hankie and play it, all PALS and CALS will relate)
I played the CD, while mouthing the words and crying. The song that follows on my CD is "take this job and shove it" So fitting, so John it made me smile thru my tears.
Rejoice in his freedom, let his grace guide you, and hold him in your heart forever.
Thank you for coming, please join me in a toast of Jack Daniels to my best friend, my sweet Johnny.
now I am crying to hard to type, love ya baby, till we meet again
Penny1 ( penny for your thoughts) AKA Sherri Kolenbrander
He was born 7-20-1951, DX 10-25-5005, earned his wings 6-7-2011.
Three mths have passed, my memories are now mostly of the first 25 years the last 6 years as his ALS progressed have been taken over by happier memories. That is part of the problem, now I only miss him. When he first died and I knew he was so tired it was easier to let him go. We held his memorial in a park on what would have been his 60th birthday. Below is most of what I said at the memorial, maybe it will help you find peace. I am praying that it will help me.
What is meant to be, will be. I am so pround of the grace John showed in life, his legacy to all, when faced with adversity the measure of a person is the grace in which you handle it. In his darkest hour he faced things we can only imagine with his usual sense of humor.
As his time was growing short, we talked about wedding rings have no beginning or end. They are forever like our love. I told him when he got his angel wings he could run, jump, fish, and hunt. With his usual smirky smile he as forcefully as he could muster said "then get my tennis shoes" He was ready.
32 1/2 years ago 2 hearts began to beat as 1. There was no I, only we. in the moment that John earned his wings 1 heart had to beat for 2. That heart my heart was filled with 2 of the most conflicting emotions, half was breaking and the other half soared with freedom, and what remains 1 heart filled with love and peace and a desire to make him proud.
What is meant to be, will be. I recieved a small statue when I has 5, a red haired boy and a yorkie dog. John had reddish hair and Samson is half yorkie. The first song we danced to at our wedding was David Allen Coe "Would you lay with me"
would you lay with me in afield of stone if my needs were strong would you lay with me
should my lips grow dry would you wet them dear in the midnight hour... wipe the blood away from my dieing hand if I give myself to you .....will you love me when i am down and out in my time of trial will you stand by me....
( find this song get a hankie and play it, all PALS and CALS will relate)
I played the CD, while mouthing the words and crying. The song that follows on my CD is "take this job and shove it" So fitting, so John it made me smile thru my tears.
Rejoice in his freedom, let his grace guide you, and hold him in your heart forever.
Thank you for coming, please join me in a toast of Jack Daniels to my best friend, my sweet Johnny.
now I am crying to hard to type, love ya baby, till we meet again
Penny1 ( penny for your thoughts) AKA Sherri Kolenbrander