Hi Danni, welcome to the forum. I have written you a long post, but it's gone to moderation. It will go on once the moderator has ok' d it. I really was in your place ( and still am). I understand. I am a MS nurse and my husband is a neurologist. It's been just as hard for both of us, and being in the business, made it no easier.
Keep in touch. I will try and help all I can