paul318
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Hi Everyone,
My name is Paul,I am 49 years old and live in the UK. I don't have a diagnosis yet so I am trying to find out as much as possible about PLS. I have been unable to work for three and a half years. I have seen 4 neurologists and have been told that my problems are 'functional'. Functional is another way of saying 'conversion disorder'. I have no history of psychiatric illness and have suffered no major trauma that would cause my problems, so I do not accept this diagnosis. I know that the first neuro I saw put my illness down to stress, this was very early in my illness, and I have a suspicion that all the others have just followed his lead and haven't looked at me objectively. My search for answers continues. I have been on a number of different forums trying to make sense of all the symptoms I have. Here is what has happened so far. Be warned - it is a long story.
As a child I had problems with weak ankles and being clumsy. I saw a consultant for a number of years as a child. At one time they wanted to put my legs in irons to give support. But my mother refused the treatment as she didn't want me to suffer being bullied. I had my shoes adapted to try and correct the problem. I have always had falls and been unsteady on my feet, but have been able to get on with my life. In fact it affected me very little, apart from the embarrassment of the occasional fall. I am not sure if this all has any relevance. In fact it is something that I never mentioned when I saw the first neuro as it was just the way things are.
In late 2004, I started to have problems with my voice. I would have trouble with being heard. My voice was weak and hoarse sounding. This would last a few days and then go only to re-occur again later. My GP put it down to the inhaler I use for asthma. He didn't bother to examine my throat, and just said I should be careful to wash out my mouth after using my inhaler. I did this but the problems with my voice persisted.
During the early part of 2005 I was finding that my energy levels seemed lower. I had a couple of instances when I could see the muscles in my arms moving in a wave like manner. On one occasion I went to pick up a shopping basket at the supermarket when my arm went limp. It didn't last so I ignored it. during this period I noticed a number of things happening, including occasional dizziness, but ignored them as I hate going to the doctor.
Things didn't really get bad until December 2005. I went for a flu jab. The nurse who gave it to me took my blood pressure and found it was really high. I had been diagnosed with hypertension early in 2005. My drugs were changed and I was told to rest. Within a few hours I was experiencing dizziness when standing. I assumed that the problem was caused by the change in medication. It persisted so I saw my GP and I was put back on my original meds. I then noticed I had a strange sensation down the left side of my face. Sort of numbed, but it also felt as if my face had dropped but it wasn't noticeable to anyone else. My speech problems had also reoccurred but this time I was having problems with articulation. My speech was slightly stammering, It sometimes felt as if my I couldn't engage my mouth. my walking was becoming worse. My legs would become stiff after walking a short distance. I saw a locum doctor at my doctors practice. She examined me. Found things she was concerned with and I saw a neurologist within 2 weeks.
This is where it all gets complicated. The first neuro examined me and put it down to stress. I was under a bit of stress, but no more than most people suffer. stress is just a fact of life. He told me to go back to work! I tried but was sent home after a few hours as I was having problems with balance and concentration. I was working at that time in a residential school for profoundly disabled children. I was a deputy manager of one of the residential bungalows. I went back to my doctor. I saw another locum. This was one of the problems I had for the first year I saw a different doctor on just about every visit as my doctor was unwell himself. This inconsistency hasn't helped. This locum sent me for a second opinion.
The next neurologist I saw did a neurological examination, took blood tests and send my for a MRI of my head. I had to wait three months for the results. During this time my walking had deteriorated. I was walking everyday, but was finding that my legs were increasingly stiff towards the end of my walk. My right side was worse than my left, which has always been the case. I sometimes looked drunk when I walked. I resisted using a stick until one day a group of kids were laughing at me as I looked drunk. I also develop strong myoclonic movements, my head would be thrown back very violently. There is no warning when this happens, so there is no way of controlling them. I saw the neuro for the results in July 2006. He saw that my walking was worse. I told him about the movements, and he witnessed some. He said that my MRI was clear. He examined me and said there was nothing neurologically wrong and discharged me.
At this time I started to look into ME/CFS and asked for a referral to the National ME Center. ME is the original name for Chronic Fatigue Syndrome There is much I could writ about this but this post is already too long. You can find out more at http://www.ahummingbirdsguide.com/. The local Health Authority refused to fund the referral and recommended yet another neurologist.
Neurologist number 3 was very thorough. I had a EEG, lumbar puncture, various blood tests, MRI of my head and spine and saw the neuro psychiatrist, who incidently couldn't find any evidence of a psychiatric condition. Non of the tests showed anything. I was discharged with a diagnosis of ME/CFS. I knew i didn't completely fit this diagnosis as fatigue was a minor problem. I hadn't has a day in bed even since becoming ill.
I was sent to the local ME/CFS service. I had to fill out a form before I went. It was all about how sleepy I was. The problem was I wasn't sleepy! The doctor there saw me for a longer time than any of the neuros. He gave me a neurological examination, found spasticity in my legs, a spastic gait, positive Romberg test and fine persistent tremor. He said it looked nothing like ME/CFS. He was the first to mention PLS, but I didn't really take it in at the time. He said i should be referred to the best neurological hospital in the country, The National Neurological Hospital in Queen Square, London. I was hopeful as he said that there was bound to be someone there who would know what is wrong.
My experience at the National wasn't good. The first neurologist I was greeted me with the words, 'You have seen 3 neurologists, 2 I know personally, what on earth are you doing here?' He then preceded to accuse me of going from neuro to neuro wasting there time. My wife and I were shocked. He did a cursory neurological examination. by this time I was so stressed that I am sure it affected how I behaved and only added to his suspicion that I had a conversion disorder. He went to see his boss and came back and said they would admit me.
In January 2008 I was admitted to the National I was greeted with the same disbeleif I suffered at my first visit, which put me under a great deal of stress. They did a startle study, which was positive, a few blood tests and another lumbar puncture. I saw 2 movement disorder specialists on the ward, neither for more than 5 minutes and never in private. They relied on what their registrars had reported to them. That was it! One week in hospital for that. They had me back for more tests in the april. This time i saw a Speech Therapist, had a EMG on right leg, a combined EMG/EEG and neuropsychological testing. Anyhow, they decided that it is all in my head! What they call 'functional, but which means psychiatric.
My symptoms have continued to get worse. At this time I have speech problems, intermittent problems with swallowing and aspirating, stiff neck, involuntary movements of my upper body, fingers and toes that more on their own, muscle twitched in my eye lids and occasional involuntary shutting of my eyes, Muscle spasms in my lower back, occasional muscle spasm in my neck that feels like I am being throttled and my gait has continued to worsen. I also have problems with writing and fine movement in my fingers and some intermittent bladder and bowel problems.
I have been given 6 weeks of physiotherapy, which I have just started. The National would like to admit me into their neuropsychiatric unit for 6 weeks intensive therapy, which would consist of Graded Exercise Therapy, CBT to deal with my abnormal illness beliefs, and physiotherapy. I would have refused it as I have heard enough bad things about the treatment . They decided not to offer it to me as I lost my eldest son last September and I am still grieving.
So that is me. Well and truly in limboland. Lots of symptoms but no answers. The problem, I am told, is that my symptoms do not fit any known neurological disease. There are some that look like parkinsonism, but others that don't fit. I am not even sure they fit PLS, but someone else mentioned it appart from the ME/CFS doctro, which is why I am here. Sorry for a very long first post.
Paul
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My name is Paul,I am 49 years old and live in the UK. I don't have a diagnosis yet so I am trying to find out as much as possible about PLS. I have been unable to work for three and a half years. I have seen 4 neurologists and have been told that my problems are 'functional'. Functional is another way of saying 'conversion disorder'. I have no history of psychiatric illness and have suffered no major trauma that would cause my problems, so I do not accept this diagnosis. I know that the first neuro I saw put my illness down to stress, this was very early in my illness, and I have a suspicion that all the others have just followed his lead and haven't looked at me objectively. My search for answers continues. I have been on a number of different forums trying to make sense of all the symptoms I have. Here is what has happened so far. Be warned - it is a long story.
As a child I had problems with weak ankles and being clumsy. I saw a consultant for a number of years as a child. At one time they wanted to put my legs in irons to give support. But my mother refused the treatment as she didn't want me to suffer being bullied. I had my shoes adapted to try and correct the problem. I have always had falls and been unsteady on my feet, but have been able to get on with my life. In fact it affected me very little, apart from the embarrassment of the occasional fall. I am not sure if this all has any relevance. In fact it is something that I never mentioned when I saw the first neuro as it was just the way things are.
In late 2004, I started to have problems with my voice. I would have trouble with being heard. My voice was weak and hoarse sounding. This would last a few days and then go only to re-occur again later. My GP put it down to the inhaler I use for asthma. He didn't bother to examine my throat, and just said I should be careful to wash out my mouth after using my inhaler. I did this but the problems with my voice persisted.
During the early part of 2005 I was finding that my energy levels seemed lower. I had a couple of instances when I could see the muscles in my arms moving in a wave like manner. On one occasion I went to pick up a shopping basket at the supermarket when my arm went limp. It didn't last so I ignored it. during this period I noticed a number of things happening, including occasional dizziness, but ignored them as I hate going to the doctor.
Things didn't really get bad until December 2005. I went for a flu jab. The nurse who gave it to me took my blood pressure and found it was really high. I had been diagnosed with hypertension early in 2005. My drugs were changed and I was told to rest. Within a few hours I was experiencing dizziness when standing. I assumed that the problem was caused by the change in medication. It persisted so I saw my GP and I was put back on my original meds. I then noticed I had a strange sensation down the left side of my face. Sort of numbed, but it also felt as if my face had dropped but it wasn't noticeable to anyone else. My speech problems had also reoccurred but this time I was having problems with articulation. My speech was slightly stammering, It sometimes felt as if my I couldn't engage my mouth. my walking was becoming worse. My legs would become stiff after walking a short distance. I saw a locum doctor at my doctors practice. She examined me. Found things she was concerned with and I saw a neurologist within 2 weeks.
This is where it all gets complicated. The first neuro examined me and put it down to stress. I was under a bit of stress, but no more than most people suffer. stress is just a fact of life. He told me to go back to work! I tried but was sent home after a few hours as I was having problems with balance and concentration. I was working at that time in a residential school for profoundly disabled children. I was a deputy manager of one of the residential bungalows. I went back to my doctor. I saw another locum. This was one of the problems I had for the first year I saw a different doctor on just about every visit as my doctor was unwell himself. This inconsistency hasn't helped. This locum sent me for a second opinion.
The next neurologist I saw did a neurological examination, took blood tests and send my for a MRI of my head. I had to wait three months for the results. During this time my walking had deteriorated. I was walking everyday, but was finding that my legs were increasingly stiff towards the end of my walk. My right side was worse than my left, which has always been the case. I sometimes looked drunk when I walked. I resisted using a stick until one day a group of kids were laughing at me as I looked drunk. I also develop strong myoclonic movements, my head would be thrown back very violently. There is no warning when this happens, so there is no way of controlling them. I saw the neuro for the results in July 2006. He saw that my walking was worse. I told him about the movements, and he witnessed some. He said that my MRI was clear. He examined me and said there was nothing neurologically wrong and discharged me.
At this time I started to look into ME/CFS and asked for a referral to the National ME Center. ME is the original name for Chronic Fatigue Syndrome There is much I could writ about this but this post is already too long. You can find out more at http://www.ahummingbirdsguide.com/. The local Health Authority refused to fund the referral and recommended yet another neurologist.
Neurologist number 3 was very thorough. I had a EEG, lumbar puncture, various blood tests, MRI of my head and spine and saw the neuro psychiatrist, who incidently couldn't find any evidence of a psychiatric condition. Non of the tests showed anything. I was discharged with a diagnosis of ME/CFS. I knew i didn't completely fit this diagnosis as fatigue was a minor problem. I hadn't has a day in bed even since becoming ill.
I was sent to the local ME/CFS service. I had to fill out a form before I went. It was all about how sleepy I was. The problem was I wasn't sleepy! The doctor there saw me for a longer time than any of the neuros. He gave me a neurological examination, found spasticity in my legs, a spastic gait, positive Romberg test and fine persistent tremor. He said it looked nothing like ME/CFS. He was the first to mention PLS, but I didn't really take it in at the time. He said i should be referred to the best neurological hospital in the country, The National Neurological Hospital in Queen Square, London. I was hopeful as he said that there was bound to be someone there who would know what is wrong.
My experience at the National wasn't good. The first neurologist I was greeted me with the words, 'You have seen 3 neurologists, 2 I know personally, what on earth are you doing here?' He then preceded to accuse me of going from neuro to neuro wasting there time. My wife and I were shocked. He did a cursory neurological examination. by this time I was so stressed that I am sure it affected how I behaved and only added to his suspicion that I had a conversion disorder. He went to see his boss and came back and said they would admit me.
In January 2008 I was admitted to the National I was greeted with the same disbeleif I suffered at my first visit, which put me under a great deal of stress. They did a startle study, which was positive, a few blood tests and another lumbar puncture. I saw 2 movement disorder specialists on the ward, neither for more than 5 minutes and never in private. They relied on what their registrars had reported to them. That was it! One week in hospital for that. They had me back for more tests in the april. This time i saw a Speech Therapist, had a EMG on right leg, a combined EMG/EEG and neuropsychological testing. Anyhow, they decided that it is all in my head! What they call 'functional, but which means psychiatric.
My symptoms have continued to get worse. At this time I have speech problems, intermittent problems with swallowing and aspirating, stiff neck, involuntary movements of my upper body, fingers and toes that more on their own, muscle twitched in my eye lids and occasional involuntary shutting of my eyes, Muscle spasms in my lower back, occasional muscle spasm in my neck that feels like I am being throttled and my gait has continued to worsen. I also have problems with writing and fine movement in my fingers and some intermittent bladder and bowel problems.
I have been given 6 weeks of physiotherapy, which I have just started. The National would like to admit me into their neuropsychiatric unit for 6 weeks intensive therapy, which would consist of Graded Exercise Therapy, CBT to deal with my abnormal illness beliefs, and physiotherapy. I would have refused it as I have heard enough bad things about the treatment . They decided not to offer it to me as I lost my eldest son last September and I am still grieving.
So that is me. Well and truly in limboland. Lots of symptoms but no answers. The problem, I am told, is that my symptoms do not fit any known neurological disease. There are some that look like parkinsonism, but others that don't fit. I am not even sure they fit PLS, but someone else mentioned it appart from the ME/CFS doctro, which is why I am here. Sorry for a very long first post.
Paul
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