My husband and I have been married for 32 years. I wish I could tell you we have the "perfect" marriage, but I am a realist and know that isn't the case. What I can tell you is that I love him and never want to live without him. He has coped with PLS rather well, staying busy and positive and strong. It's been over 4 years of constant doc visits and testing and medications, adjusting and changing...all a lot to deal with. Lately he has been so irritable and I understand this, but it's directed at me. Nothing I say or do is the right thing. I can do nothing right. It's almost like he is pushing me away to make sure I don't run away. I find this so frustrating. WE have enough to deal with, why add one more thing to an already full plate? Why look for problems where there are none? I am being patient, I am trying to reassure yes, it's not sinking in. For those of you with this insane disease, did you go through this? For the family members, how did you deal with this? I just want to scream, nothing in our lives is okay. The one thing that I thought we had going for us was a mutual love and respect that guaranteed that we would work as a team and face this, as we have so many things in life, together. I am SHOCKED that we are at this place where he is questioning everything, and I do mean everything. He has even questioned my spending time with our grandchildren, saying I am trying to replace and empty part of my life with them because I am not happy with him. My grandchildren are the only enjoyment that I have in life. He's making me feel guilty for spending time with them. I understand that this is his illness, his pain, his frustration, his anger, his fear. I keep trying to reassure him. I keep being patient. I keep trying to do what I think he needs me to do. What I really want to do is stand on the roof and yell at the top of my lungs..."this has hurt my life too, I am a person, I have wants and plans and dreams. This awful disease has stopeed my dreams too. Isn't that enough? Just when you think IT can't take one more thing, it does. This was just something I didn't expect. I can prepare for some things, this one I didn't see coming. Life sure sucks doesn't it? We tried to plan it out so well. Now we are just trying to deal with what comes up. I am not winning this one. Not even close.