Micheline
Active member
- Joined
- Sep 23, 2008
- Messages
- 81
- Reason
- PALS
- Diagnosis
- 11/2008
- Country
- CA
- State
- British Columbia
- City
- Campbell River
I need some advice. I have talked to my social workers on my care team. My family has been torn apart from this disease and personal choices. I am faced with my family caregivers not wanting to be caregivers anymore. I so completly understand. I have increased my personal care, so the family doesn’t have to help me in that way anymore. On the emotional side, the support isn’t there either. I have been contemplating moving out on my own as the family household is a stressful situation. Social workers feel I am more than capable of doing this, but they are afraid I will shut everyone out. At this time I have as I am going through so many emotions. I have been put on a wait list but I feel I still can function as I still can talk, eat, breathe hands slowing down a bit but still functional. The hospice came by and suggested respite, but being summer beds are limited. She feels that I just need time to get away from the situation and regroup for my future. Do I want it to include my family absolutely, but I cannot get a for sure answer that they will be there in heart and soul and the trust factor. So much damage has been done that all I want is my family to be happy and if I remove myself they will have happiness again. I broke my family and 18 yrs is going down the drain with no hope in site. I will be facing the time I have left alone. This post is not to hurt my family, but I am at a fork in the road that can go really bad. I don’t want to make the wrong choice again. We haven’t made any memorable moments since my diagnosed, just been shut out, lonely and pain for all.