I am sorry if I have asked the stupid question on Lung Cancer/ALS earlier. I just wonder if there are any worse disease than this damn ALS.
I am recently diagnosed and is really devastated. I fear the unforgiving aspect of the disease. As it is, they are progressing on all fronts like a freight train.
But I have an additional psychological hurdle that makes it harder for me. Due to my carelessness and a slight lapse of concentration, I slipped and banged my head real bad. No concussion but I knew instantly something bad happened. My symptoms began just 2 weeks after that incident. Through discussion with my neuro, and through what I have researched, I am very sure that the CNS injury that I had was the trigger of my ALS.
Friends of the forum, I just couldn't forgive myself. My life was perfect just a couple of months ago. But through a careless incident which I am to take blame, my whole life changed in an instant. Why am I being punished so dearly with such a small mistake, such that I have to pay by torture till crippled and death? I mean, there are many more bad bad and ugly blunders that others have commited, but most escaped with just small health problems or even just financial loss. I really would have prefered that ALS has striked me at random without any fault on my own. I just couldn't get over this and it is a double blow to me. How I wished and dream every night that I could just turn the clock back to that instance and avert the fall. By the way, the fall was not any initial sign of weakness, as I was 100% fit. It was caused by a wet floor.
Tell me, how can I overcome this? What curse is cast on me such that I have to die slowly being crippled and finally death and knowing that I have caused all these to myself?
Sorry for the rambling...
I am recently diagnosed and is really devastated. I fear the unforgiving aspect of the disease. As it is, they are progressing on all fronts like a freight train.
But I have an additional psychological hurdle that makes it harder for me. Due to my carelessness and a slight lapse of concentration, I slipped and banged my head real bad. No concussion but I knew instantly something bad happened. My symptoms began just 2 weeks after that incident. Through discussion with my neuro, and through what I have researched, I am very sure that the CNS injury that I had was the trigger of my ALS.
Friends of the forum, I just couldn't forgive myself. My life was perfect just a couple of months ago. But through a careless incident which I am to take blame, my whole life changed in an instant. Why am I being punished so dearly with such a small mistake, such that I have to pay by torture till crippled and death? I mean, there are many more bad bad and ugly blunders that others have commited, but most escaped with just small health problems or even just financial loss. I really would have prefered that ALS has striked me at random without any fault on my own. I just couldn't get over this and it is a double blow to me. How I wished and dream every night that I could just turn the clock back to that instance and avert the fall. By the way, the fall was not any initial sign of weakness, as I was 100% fit. It was caused by a wet floor.
Tell me, how can I overcome this? What curse is cast on me such that I have to die slowly being crippled and finally death and knowing that I have caused all these to myself?
Sorry for the rambling...