DarkCast
Member
- Joined
- Oct 6, 2014
- Messages
- 19
- Reason
- PALS
- Diagnosis
- 08/2013
- Country
- US
- State
- Ohio
- City
- Fairborn
So, I am new to this forum, and I have been trying to read as much as possible. But, I couldn't find anyone that asked this question, so I am going to ask it. Or maybe someone did in the past, and it is just on many many pages back, and I did not go back far enough. So apologies to those who have been on here much longer then I if this is a repeat question.
But, honestly, it is really hard to talk about my ALS/MND with anyone outside my family (Mum and Brother), and honestly, it is hard to talk to them about it as well. As it seems like they are going to cry every time I bring up the subject or tell my Mum about something new that is happening. Simply because she is sad that she is going to have to bury her own child in a few years, which I have come to terms with. So that is the mental pain of it all. Just simply dealing with being around my family and the sad look I get when they look at me. I know they do not mean to, but I just want everyone to smile. It is like I am living through my funeral every single day atm, and it does my head in. I am literally crying just writing this and thinking about it all.
And second, the pain in my body is starting to become much worse. I hate pain medicine, so I am on a very low dose pain Medicine atm, even against my doctors wishes. I only take Norco 7.5mg/325. They have tried to get me on much stronger medicine, but I just do not want to go down that road yet, but it is quickly becoming almost to painful not to go something stronger. I would like not to if at all possible, and was hoping maybe some of you may have some suggestions. I am starting to lose a lot of the power and motor functions in my lower back, and have been in rehab to work the muscles on a regular basis. So as many of you know, Rehab = PAIN. I come out of there each day, every week, feeling absolutely worn out and just throbbing of pain all over my body. It feels like huge knitting needles, millions of them, are stabbing my muscles all over my body, and I usually end up having a semi-small seizure an hour or so later from it all.
Apologies to be very emotional. It has just been an emotional past 14 months, and I have learned to deal with a lot, but some things, you just need to ask someone else like you yourself. These are things I just cannot talk to my family about and hope that you kind people can help me out. Thanks in advance.
But, honestly, it is really hard to talk about my ALS/MND with anyone outside my family (Mum and Brother), and honestly, it is hard to talk to them about it as well. As it seems like they are going to cry every time I bring up the subject or tell my Mum about something new that is happening. Simply because she is sad that she is going to have to bury her own child in a few years, which I have come to terms with. So that is the mental pain of it all. Just simply dealing with being around my family and the sad look I get when they look at me. I know they do not mean to, but I just want everyone to smile. It is like I am living through my funeral every single day atm, and it does my head in. I am literally crying just writing this and thinking about it all.
And second, the pain in my body is starting to become much worse. I hate pain medicine, so I am on a very low dose pain Medicine atm, even against my doctors wishes. I only take Norco 7.5mg/325. They have tried to get me on much stronger medicine, but I just do not want to go down that road yet, but it is quickly becoming almost to painful not to go something stronger. I would like not to if at all possible, and was hoping maybe some of you may have some suggestions. I am starting to lose a lot of the power and motor functions in my lower back, and have been in rehab to work the muscles on a regular basis. So as many of you know, Rehab = PAIN. I come out of there each day, every week, feeling absolutely worn out and just throbbing of pain all over my body. It feels like huge knitting needles, millions of them, are stabbing my muscles all over my body, and I usually end up having a semi-small seizure an hour or so later from it all.
Apologies to be very emotional. It has just been an emotional past 14 months, and I have learned to deal with a lot, but some things, you just need to ask someone else like you yourself. These are things I just cannot talk to my family about and hope that you kind people can help me out. Thanks in advance.