Kim C
Active member
- Joined
- Jul 31, 2013
- Messages
- 82
- Reason
- CALS
- Diagnosis
- 07/2013
- Country
- US
- State
- KY
- City
- Nicholasville
I don't really know where to put this. I am not coping very well at all right now. Mom has gotten worse in the last two months and is nearing the end-stage of this disease. When I'm at work I usually cry most of the day. When I'm at home with her, I alternate between super stressed and surviving. She can't do one single thing for herself, can't speak, has some trouble with eating & drinking, breathing a little worse at night. Nothing here new to any of you, I'm sure.
What I am looking for is suggestions on my coping better. When I get upset, stressed, etc, I know it upsets her. We're doing the best we can. My dad handles it well but I am not. Mom looks like "death warmed over" and again Saturday night said she wanted to die. I hate seeing her this way, so miserable. It is all so unfair.
I work full-time and am still able to walk my puppy twice a day so I do get away from the stree sometimes. Yesterday we had a great day, I talked and made he laugh. Family & church member came to visit and I think she enjoyed it. Puppy make her laugh too. Then last night we had another one of the communicatin road blocks where dad & I just could not figure out what she needed. Then this morning she got up with a swollen and red left eye.
I am not sleeping, feel like I am on the verge of a nervous breakdown.
What I am looking for is suggestions on my coping better. When I get upset, stressed, etc, I know it upsets her. We're doing the best we can. My dad handles it well but I am not. Mom looks like "death warmed over" and again Saturday night said she wanted to die. I hate seeing her this way, so miserable. It is all so unfair.
I work full-time and am still able to walk my puppy twice a day so I do get away from the stree sometimes. Yesterday we had a great day, I talked and made he laugh. Family & church member came to visit and I think she enjoyed it. Puppy make her laugh too. Then last night we had another one of the communicatin road blocks where dad & I just could not figure out what she needed. Then this morning she got up with a swollen and red left eye.
I am not sleeping, feel like I am on the verge of a nervous breakdown.