BlueK58
Member
- Joined
- Jun 18, 2013
- Messages
- 25
- Reason
- Loved one DX
- Diagnosis
- 06/2009
- Country
- US
- State
- MA
- City
- Westfield
Took care of my mom for 5 years. Full time for the last 2...She passed away about a month ago. I was there, I watched her go and thank god it was peaceful. Throughout it all I NEVER cried. I got choked up and teary eyed, had a few brief tears but never had a good real release type cry. Today while shopping my debit card was denied and I was really annoyed. I was feeling so frustrated and I began to think about my mom on the drive home. Once I got home I just broke down and cried. It wasn't a ton but enough where I really cried. Now it is all starting to become real. I miss my mom so much. I know there are more of these moments to come and I bet they will be much more intense. How do people cope with this? I feel like I don't know what "normal" is for me anymore and I am afraid I will continue to feel this way. I feel tired all the time, I am disorganized, indecisive, do not want to see friends and feel like I am always in a general Fog. I realize these are all normal things while grieving. I guess I am just wondering if people can find happiness in life again? I love my mother so much and its so lonely not waking up and taking care of her anymore. Its like I lost my best friend and purpose