ottawa girl
Moderator emeritus
- Joined
- Jun 14, 2012
- Messages
- 1,569
- Reason
- PALS
- Diagnosis
- 04/2012
- Country
- CA
- State
- Ontario
- City
- Ottawa
In my heart, I really believed I had miraculously avoided the "anger stage" and that I'd flown directly from "Shock/Denial" to "Acceptance" - bypassing "Bargaining" and not so much of a hint yet of "Depression".
Why would I be angry? (my diagnoses is no one's fault) With whom would I be angry? (no one caused my disease) It would be irrational to be mad as hell wouldn't it? These thoughts, and more, have resounded in my head - day after day - since D Day.
Thank you Notme & HelenL and others - you made me realize that I am obviously in the angry stage. Thanks for gently reminding me that lashing out at perceived trolls is not healthy, productive or helpful to anyone - least of all myself.
Indeed, like everyone, I have been miffed, frustrated, irritated, annoyed, ticked and pis--d off in my life; usually (and thankfully) these emotions are just quick bursts and are short lived. I can honestly say I've rarely been really angry for days and days.
Until the last few weeks. I had presumed the "anger"stage would have me lashing out at those closest to me - instead I've lashed out at strangers. That's not right. That's not who I am nor is it who I aspire to be.
Notme and HelenL and others have unwittingly (or not) snapped me out of this "anger" phase. It's such a relief. Thank you. I mean it, thank you.
Why would I be angry? (my diagnoses is no one's fault) With whom would I be angry? (no one caused my disease) It would be irrational to be mad as hell wouldn't it? These thoughts, and more, have resounded in my head - day after day - since D Day.
Thank you Notme & HelenL and others - you made me realize that I am obviously in the angry stage. Thanks for gently reminding me that lashing out at perceived trolls is not healthy, productive or helpful to anyone - least of all myself.
Indeed, like everyone, I have been miffed, frustrated, irritated, annoyed, ticked and pis--d off in my life; usually (and thankfully) these emotions are just quick bursts and are short lived. I can honestly say I've rarely been really angry for days and days.
Until the last few weeks. I had presumed the "anger"stage would have me lashing out at those closest to me - instead I've lashed out at strangers. That's not right. That's not who I am nor is it who I aspire to be.
Notme and HelenL and others have unwittingly (or not) snapped me out of this "anger" phase. It's such a relief. Thank you. I mean it, thank you.