lakelover
Active member
- Joined
- Sep 5, 2011
- Messages
- 54
- Reason
- CALS
- Diagnosis
- 08/2011
- Country
- US
- State
- NC
- City
- Greensboro
I need advice. I understand the aspect of denial when you have been given a fatal disease diagnosis. What I need to know is how long does this denial last. My husband’s first diagnosis was Aug 15, 2011 and the confirmation from Duke was Oct 25, 2011. My husband will not talk about the disease nor has he told anyone in his family. He also asked that I not say anything to anyone. I shared the news with my family and our son. I was so distraught and having an extremely hard time holding things together without breaking down in front of my husband and my family realized something was wrong with me. Of course he was very angry with me for saying something and other than my family, my boss and the people on this forum I have not said anything to anyone. He owns a business and has not said anything to any of the 70 employees who work for him. Ralph has always had this approach concerning any health issues related to him or his family. He looks at sickness as a weakness. His whole family sticks their head in the sand and acts like there is nothing going on and although I hate to admit, it seems to work for them. In 1990 his mother was diagnosed with Rectum Cancer with a 35% chance of survival of 2 years. She is still alive 21 years later at 83 years old. His brother was diagnosed with stage 3B lung cancer and he just celebrated 3 years cancer free. His father passed away in February 2011 at age 88 from frontal temporal disease. Of course the doctor at Duke picked up on the frontal temporal disease. He has already set us up for March to test for FTD. I do not see any signs with the exception of words. He has a problem remembering certain words when he is talking. I have not seen anything work related which would question his ability to make a decision. My mother has dementia and he is not showing any of these symptoms. His hands, arms and shoulders are about gone but he refuses to use a straw or any utensils to help with his eating (he owns a restaurant so he eats in the dining room). He argues with me about this because he does not want anyone to know there is anything wrong. You would have to be blind as a bat not to see there is something wrong. He is starting to have lower back pain and neck problems. Again he will not let me check anything out which could help him. He will take Rilutek and vitamins but if it is a handicap device he will have not have any part of it. I am aggressively trying to get him into the Cytokentics Drug Trial which he does want to participate in because he wants to get his strength back and does not want to get any worse (like I said denial)! I cannot make any plans to prepare for what is coming in the future. My daughter in law’s mother, who owned a handicap van, passed away last month. I purchased this van but am having to hide the vehicle from him. He stills works 10 – 12 hours a day and will not take any time off to do anything else. When I try to talk to him about what is happening his response is always the same, I am going to fight this with everything I have, my mother and brother has beaten cancer and I’m going to beat this. How I wish that could happen. Do I just keep going along with things and not push him? Do I continue to deal with things as they arise and prepare the best I can? For 39 ½ years we have always talked about things and I have never kept anything from him. I feel like I'm lying each time I make a decision concerning him without him being aware of it. What do I do?
Wanda
Wanda