Nightfaze
New member
- Joined
- Dec 7, 2011
- Messages
- 2
- Reason
- Loved one DX
- Country
- CA
- State
- ON
- City
- ottawa
Hello,
My big sister was diagnosed with ALS in august 2011. It is now december 2011 and she has already been confined to a wheelchair. I am so angry that she can't walk much anymore, she is tired and has lost muscle weight. I went shopping with her two weeks ago, we used her wheelchair and it was scary to see her disease progress so fast. We laughed allot, I was so clumsy, but people around us were so patient and kind. We looked like two little teenagers.
My sister just gave birth in july, by the time she was diagnosed, the doctors told her she could not take the baby in her arms unless she was sitting down... in case she dropped the baby. She just turned 40 years old. It is so uncommon that someone so young is diagnosed with this disease. My family finds it so hard to watch her slowly die. I mean, I find it hard.
Most people don't know what to say, i hate talking about my sister because when i start talking about her children, how young they are, how much her husband loves her, it sounds like some terrible soap opera, and not anything like the life I ever intense my sister to have. It just doesn't sound real, it's so terrible and heartbreaking, how could this be happening? My friends are more upset than me, because i'm trying to keep it together! I'm trying to be realistic and think of everything she needs, what I can do to make this easier for her... but my own life is messy and needs some serious dusting.
I keep randomly bursting into tears... it's like i'm mourning every part of her she looses, i'm crying because she is laughing. I'm crying because at this rate i have a feeling she won't be there when my boyfriend asks for my hand in marriage... when i walk down the aisle... when I get pregnant... and on and on the list goes in my head. i'm here in the moment... but at the same time so far away.
My big sister was diagnosed with ALS in august 2011. It is now december 2011 and she has already been confined to a wheelchair. I am so angry that she can't walk much anymore, she is tired and has lost muscle weight. I went shopping with her two weeks ago, we used her wheelchair and it was scary to see her disease progress so fast. We laughed allot, I was so clumsy, but people around us were so patient and kind. We looked like two little teenagers.
My sister just gave birth in july, by the time she was diagnosed, the doctors told her she could not take the baby in her arms unless she was sitting down... in case she dropped the baby. She just turned 40 years old. It is so uncommon that someone so young is diagnosed with this disease. My family finds it so hard to watch her slowly die. I mean, I find it hard.
Most people don't know what to say, i hate talking about my sister because when i start talking about her children, how young they are, how much her husband loves her, it sounds like some terrible soap opera, and not anything like the life I ever intense my sister to have. It just doesn't sound real, it's so terrible and heartbreaking, how could this be happening? My friends are more upset than me, because i'm trying to keep it together! I'm trying to be realistic and think of everything she needs, what I can do to make this easier for her... but my own life is messy and needs some serious dusting.
I keep randomly bursting into tears... it's like i'm mourning every part of her she looses, i'm crying because she is laughing. I'm crying because at this rate i have a feeling she won't be there when my boyfriend asks for my hand in marriage... when i walk down the aisle... when I get pregnant... and on and on the list goes in my head. i'm here in the moment... but at the same time so far away.